A Humble Confession to Doyal Nitai

:pray: O Nitai! Who am I to cause the slightest pain, discomfort, or sadness to your beloved devotees? Is there any greater misuse of my free will than this? What a fool I am!

:pray: He Nitai! No matter how much I try to serve you or please you, everything is useless unless I learn to please your devotees and serve them wholeheartedly with utmost respect.

:pray: He Nitai! I think I aspire to attain your love. But if I were really serious then I would not maintain so much envy and hatred towards your devotees.

:pray: A Vaishnav is not supposed to give pain to any living entity. But I’m such a wretch that I dare to cause pain and inconvenience to the rarest and holiest Nitaibhakts.

:pray: My casual behavior towards your devotees shows how low is my regard and devotion for you Nitai.

:hibiscus: Narrotam das Thakhur says “Nitai pada sada karo ash”.. That is, 24*7 hanker for the attainment and service of Nitai’s lotus feet. I wish I could hanker like this for a single moment at least. But I have no time. I’m 24*7 engrossed in hankering for material pleasures and making unlimited plans for sense gratification and self-aggrandizement.

Nitai’s Mercy on King Prataparudra!

King Prataparudra wanted to meet Gauranga Mahaprabhu desperately. But Mahaprabhu was adamant not to meet a king as He was playing the role of a Sannyasi. Prataparudra became so desperate that he was going to give up his kingdom and become a mendicant. He had lost all hopes of meeting Mahaprabhu. He felt completely dejected.

“The Lord has descended just to deliver all kinds of sinful, lowborn persons. He has even delivered sinners like Jagai and Madhai. But it seems that He has made a promise to deliver the entire universe with the exception of someone named Prataparudra. He may have sworn not to see me, but I have sworn to give up my life if I cannot see Him. Without Shri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s mercy, my life and kingdom are worthless.” (Chaitanya Charitamrita 2.11.45-6, 48-9)

At this point, Nitai came to his rescue. Our Doyal Nitai is an expert in rescuing everyone.
Nitai requested Mahaprabhu to give His used loincloth (bahirvasa) to Prataparudra. Mahaprabhu agreed and Nitai asked Govinda for the loincloth and sent it to the King via Sarvabhauma Bhattacharya. Prataparudra was overjoyed to receive the cloth and he began to worship it as though it were the Lord Himself.

This is a very deep Lila of Nitai. Nitai knew that without adequately worshipping Him, King Prataparudra will not be able to attain the lotus feet of Gaurasundar. That is why He made this arrangement.

“He (Nitai) serves Lord Krishna, assuming all the following forms: umbrella, slippers, bedding, pillow, garments, resting chair, residence, sacred thread and throne.” (Chaitanya Charitamrita Adi 5.123)

We know that the garments of Gaur-Krishna are non-different from Nitai. He sent Himself to Prataparudra so that after worshipping Nitai (in the form of the loincloth of Gaur) the king becomes qualified to attain Gaur-Krishna’s direct audience. Can anyone imagine to what extent Nitai goes to unite the Jivas with the Supreme Lord? Can anyone bypass His mercy and worship and directly seek the audience of Gaur-Krishna? Simply not possible!

Worthless disciple of Shrila Nitaipreshthji,
Nitaimani das

Gaur Feels Incomplete Without Nitai

suvibhranam bhratuh kara sarasijam komalataram
mitho vaktralokocchalita paramananda hridayam
(Sri Nityanandashtakam by Srila Vrindavana Das Thakur)

Nitai Gaura Haribol!
Nitai Gaura Haribol!

Gauranga Mahaprabhu is poorna (complete). He is complete in Himself but still He feels apoorna (incomplete) when Nitai is not there with Him. He feels incomplete, the most complete Lord in the entire creation, He also feels incomplete without Nitai. And when He is with Nitai, His joy, His bliss knows no bounds, no limits. He is limitlessly blissful because He is with Nitai!! Poorna Lord ‘really’ becomes poorna when He holds the hand of His brother, when He looks affectionately into the eyes of His brother. He feels ‘really complete’ at that time whether it is in the form of Ananta-shesha, Shesha Nag, in different forms of Vishnu or it is Laxmana or it is Balrama or Nitai, the poorna Lord, He always relishes the company of His brother.

suvibhranam bhratuh kara sarasijam komalataram
mitho vaktralokocchalita paramananda hridayam

Gauranga Mahaprabhu when He was in Puri, it is mentioned in the first chapter of Prema Vilasa that He used to miss Nitai so much, He sent Nitai for the deliverance of all fallen souls, He sent Nitai on a mission, but here He used to chant Nitai’s name. It is mentioned Mahaprabhu would chant Nitai’s name and He would not get conscious before nine hours. He would get unconscious for almost nine hours after chanting Nitai’s name, He used to miss Nitai so much. He would chant Nitai’s name with tears in His eyes and then He would faint. He was feeling incomplete without Nitai, then how can we feel complete or satisfied without attaining the Lotus Feet of Nitai? The Lord is also craving for that! If the Supreme Lord, the poorna, the complete Lord is also incomplete, is also craving for Nitai’s association, then how can we ever become satisfied or content without attaining Nitai’s Lotus Feet? This is a small realisation I had during Nitainam Lekhan today evening.

(10th November, 2016)

Joy Nitai!

Nitai is Yours

https://www.spreaker.com/episode/9681626

TRANSCRIPTION OF THE ABOVE AUDIO:

NITAI IS YOURS

By HG Nitaimani Das Prabhuji

October 20,2016

Is by Krishna and is for Krishna. All other religious traditions and organizations, spiritual sects they agree to this point only that this entire creation is ‘of God’ and ‘by God’. But the Vaishnavasim, the core Vaishnava philosophy is laying emphasis. Mukund Vasudev and Chotha Haridas and so many associates of Mahaprabhu were there, but Mahaprabhu gave the responsibility of delivering the fallen souls only to Nitai. And He said Nitai – ‘You take your sakha, You take Your associates and You deliver and You give the highest love to all fallen souls.’ So the first meaning of Nitai is ‘I am Yours’. This is Nitai’s philosophy. You don’t have to say ‘I am Yours’, Nitai will say ‘I am Yours’. And the second meaning is ‘Take Me’. That is why Srila Locana Das Thakur, he writes in that bhajana,

akrodha paramānanda nityānanda rāya abhimāna śūnya nitāi nagare beḍāya adhama patita jīvera dvāre dvāre giyā harināma mahā-mantra dicchena bilāiyā And in the end of this bhajana, Locana Das Thakur is sayinghena avatāre jā’ra rati nā janmila locana bale sei pāpī ela āra gela

That if you don’t get attached to such a Lord like Nitai, then you are the most sinful person. You are papi if you don’t get attached to Nitai, who is not expecting you to do anything, who is ready to do everything for you, who is ready to overlook all your faults, all your mistakes, all your offenses, all your anarthas. He is ready to overlook all and still you only wish to get attached to Radharani and Banke Bihari and Gaursundara, who first want you to get purified, who first want you to get rid of all the offenses, the 10 dhama apradha, the 10 nama apradha, the 64 seva apradha and then the anarthas mentioned in Madhurya Kadambini and other scriptures. There are so many things we need to get rid of to be accepted by Gaura Radha-Krishna as Their own. But there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no qualification, no eligibility criteria laid down by Nitai to accept you as His own. Absolutely nothing! And still you don’t want to get attached to Nitai. There is one nama apradha that if you hear the glories of the Hari nama and you don’t get attached to Hari nama, then that is also an offense. Similarly if you come to know about Nitai (aside: Sri Sri Gaura Nitai ki Jaya) you come to know about Nitai, the most merciful Lord of the entire creation in past, present and future and if you don’t get attached then you are the most sinful. hena avatāre jā’ra rati nā janmila locana bale sei pāpī ela āra gela ela āra gela means he came and he went. His life was waste. That person who did not get attached to Nitai, this crazy Lord Nitai, this unique form of the Godhead, then his entire life is waste and he is the most sinful. No other sins are going to keep you away from Gaura Radha-Krishna, only this sin is going to keep you away from Gaura Radha-Krishna – this sin is not getting attached to Nitai. Jagai and Madhai were performing all sinful acts in Navadvipa dhama, but what Bhaktivinoda Thakur writes in Navadvipa Dhama Mahatmaya? He writes- navadvīpe śata śata aparādha kari’ anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’ (Chapter 1, Glories of Dhama, Verse 57) Even if you perform hundreds of sins in Navadvipa, you will be instantly forgiven and delivered by Doyal Nitai. anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’, navadvīpe śata śata aparādha kari. śata śata means hundreds of offenses. Navadvipe. anāyāse means very easily, very quickly. anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’. tari means you will be delivered. And the proof is Jagai and Madhai. brajendra-nandana jei, śacī-suta hoilo sei, balarāma hoilo nitāi dīna-hīna jata chilo, hari-nāme uddhārilo, tāra śākṣī jagāi mādhāi golokera prema-dhana, hari-nāma-sańkīrtana, rati nā janmilo kene tāy hā hā prabhu nanda-suta, vṛṣabhānu-sutā-juta, koruṇā karoho ei-bāro narottama-dāsa koy, nā ṭheliho rāńgā pāy, tomā bine ke āche āmāra Doyal Nitaaaaii!!!! Doyal Nitaaaaii!!! (Hari Hari Biphale Janama Bhajan by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) So this bhajana is by Narottama Dasa only. narottama-dāsa koy, nā ṭheliho rāńgā pāy. Narottama Dasa is saying – “Please don’t keep me away from Your Lotus Feet. Oh Nitai Gaura Radhe-Shyama! Please keep me close to Your Lotus Feet.” tomā bine ke āche āmāra. “There is no one in my entire life who I can call as my own. Only You I can call as my own.” tomā bine ke āche āmāra. āmāra’ bolite prabhu! āre kichu nāi. (Amar Bolite Prabhu by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur). I cannot call anyone as my own. Everybody is in their own. Nobody is there for anyone in this world. Only Nitai Gaura and Radha-Krishna are yours. The vaishnavas, the devotees of Nitai Gaura RadhaKrishna are yours, the spiritual master, the spiritual masters, the shiksha gurus and the diksha gurus and the vaishnavas, and Nitai Gaura Radhe-Shyama, They are yours. tomā bine ke āche āmāra. So the proof is that Nitai delivered Jagai and Madhai despite all their disqualifications. They were the epitome of sin. They had reached the height of sin. They used to perform murders and robberies and rapes and what not? All kind of sinful activities they would indulge in. But just because they happened to come in contact with Nityananda. Just because of their contact with Nitai, they got an entry in that Srivasa Angana in which a 25 year veteran brahmachari couldn’t enter, who was only drinking milk for 25 years, he was not performing any sin, but that brahmachari did not receive the mercy of Nitai. He was sinless, but he had that ego that I am a brahmachari, I only drink milk. He was not allowed that Srivasa Angana. Many great pandits and scholars and brahamins of Navadvipa were not allowed inside Srivasa Angana, but those two heroes of sins, Jagai and Madhai. Hero or villain? (laughs) Villians! Those two greatest villians of Navadvipa, they were allowed inside Srivasa Angana in one day. One day before they were the greatest sinners and within 24 hours, they were inside Srivasa Angana. That is Nitaaaiiii!! Devotees- Haribooolll!! That is the mercy, the kripa siddhi of Doyal Nitai. Their destination was the Sudarsan Chakra. That was the only gati of Jagai and Madhai. But by Nitai’s interference and Nitai’s, you know, protection Jagai and Madhai, He finally compelled Chaitanya Mahaprabhu to embrace Jagai and Madhai. He wanted to severe the heads. He wanted to use His chakra on Jagai and Madhai. But by Nitai’s merciful interference they were finally in the arms of Gaursundara. In the arms! Can you imagine?

That is why Nitai is known as agatira gati nitāi sādhu loke bole. dayā koro more nitāi, dayā koro more agatira gati nitāi sādhu loke bole (Doya Koro More Nitai by Kanu Ramadasa Thakura) A real Vaishnava, a real Guru, a real preacher, a real sadhu should only emphasize on the importance of Nitai because rest everything Nitai will give. What can we do? We can’t do anything. Bhaktivinoda Thakur is sayingkarama geyana, kichu nahi mora, sadhana bhajana nai tumi krpa-moya, ami to kangala, ahaituki krpa cai (Bhajana Lalsa by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur) What is Bhaktivinoda Thakur saying? He is saying that just accept that you can’t do sadhana, you can’t do bhajana, you don’t have karma, you don’t have jnana, you don’t have any qualification or yogyata to attain Gauranga and Radha-Shyama. You can only consider yourself as a kangaal and as a beggar and you can start begging for ahaituki kripa means causeless mercy because there is no cause to give you mercy. Even though he himself was performing a lot of sadhana but even if you perform sadhana, you should always consider your sadhana as zero. On the strength of sadhana, you can never attain the Lord. Sadhana is to keep you disciplined. Sadhana is to teach you, you know how to engage your senses in the service of the Lord. But attainment of the Lord is impossible without mercy. And who is the Lord of mercy? Doyal Nitai! Soheno nitai bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai dridha kori’ dharo nitair pay (Nitai Pada Kamla by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) I will not explain the meaning of Nityananda today. I will only discuss Nitai. Nitai is saying ‘I am yours’. There is so much intimacy, there is no gap between the soul and the God. When Nitai comes into the picture, there is no you know, level difference. In fact He takes a lower position than you. And you are the lowest of all. You are the most fallen. But He will accept a lower position than you and then He will approach you. Gauranga Radhe-Shyama will always remain above you but Nitai will accept a lower position than you. He will fall on the ground. dante tṛṇa dhari’ Nitai dante tṛṇa dhari’ (Akrodha Paramananda by Srila Locana Das Thakur).

Which Lord has placed straw between His teeth and fallen at the feet of the fallen souls? No Lord has placed straw in His teeth. Rupa and Sanatana placed straw in their teeth when they approached Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. But Nitai placed a straw in His teeth when He approaches the most degraded fallen souls of Kaliyuga. Can you imagine? jā’re dekhe tā’re kahe dante tṛṇa dhari’ ‘āmāre kiniyā laha. āmāre kiniyā laha means – ‘Please buy Me. Please purchase Me. I am for sale. Purchase Me. Just worship Gaursundara.’ That is the meaning of Nitai. ‘Take Me. Purchase Me. Buy Me.’ That is the meaning of Nitai. There is so much intimacy between the fallen souls and Nitai that there is no wall or barrier which stops you from getting, you know getting the ashta sattvik vikara from Nitai. You can very easily get the ashta sattvik vikara from Nitai. Every other Lord will first test you. You have to pass the test and then you will be rewarded with the ashta sattvik vikara. First the other Lord will tempt you, give you material enjoyment, when you reject that. bhukti-mukti-spriha yavat pishaci (Srila Rupa Goswami in Bhakti-rasamrita-sindhu 1.2.22). When you consider the desire for sense enjoyment as witches, then only Krishna will say that you are fit to receive the sandrananda-visheshatma shri-krishnakarshini ca sa. klesha-ghni shubhada moksha-laghuta-krit sudurlabha sandrananda-visheshatma shri-krishnakarshini ca sa (Shrila Rupa Gosvami, Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu 1.17) The six symptoms of pure bhakti, you know the six results of pure bhakti. First you have to show Krishna that you want nothing but Krishna, then only Krishna will give you the highest kind of sandrananda-visheshatma. sandrananda, the highest ananda. But Nitai, His name is Nityananda. In His name only ananda is there. He is the only Lord who has the word ananda in his name. Only Lord! Nityaaananda!! Ananda is present in His name. name nityananda tumi, rupe nityananda; ei tumi nityananda rama murttimanta (Chaitanya-bhagavata, Madhya-khanda 12.18) And ananda, bliss is the ultimate goal. Ananda and love. Ultimate goal for all living entities. And ananda is present eternally in Nitai because He is Nityananda. Even Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s ananda gets increased in the association of Nityananda. It is mentioned in Chaitanya Mangala. Mahaprabhu is saccidananda vigraha but when Nitai enters that hall where Mahaprabhu is sitting, then Mahaprabhu ananda increases. So Nitai has the capacity to increase the pleasure, the bliss of the Supreme Personality of Godhead. So can’t He increase your bliss? Instant bliss comes when we chant Nityananda, when you write Nitai’s name, when you sing Nitai’s name somehow or the other. That is Narottama Dasa Thakur says nitai na bolilo mukhe, majilo samsara-sukhe (Nitai Pada Kamala). He is saying that you are not tasting the real nectar and you are, you know running after material happiness. What happiness can materialistic sense objects give you, which Nitai’s name can’t give you? So why are you not chanting Nitai’s name? nitai na bolilo mukhe, why are you not moving your tongue to chant Nitai and why are you running after the samsara sukha which is in brackets dukha? Sukha and within brackets dukha. (Laughs) And whatever is written in the brackets is the real meaning, whithin the parentheses. Samsara sukha is dukha. vidya-kule ki koribe tar. se sambandha nahi ja’r, britha janma gelo ta’r heno avatare jara rati na janmilo lochan bole sei papi elo ara gelo (Hindi) Koi papa is samsara mein Gaura Radha-Krishna se aapko door rakhne ki shakti nahi rakhta jab tak aap Nitai ke sambandha mein ho. Aur aap sabse adhik Papa shunya hokar bhi agar Nitai ke sampark mein nhi aaoge toh bhi aap Gaur Radha-Krishna ko nahi prapta kar sakte. Kaliyuga mein papa koi ayogyata nhi hai. Proof hai Jagai aur Madhai sabse bade papi. Unko bhi Gaura RadhaKrishna mille. Nitai ki Daya se. So sabse mahatvapoorna shiksha yehi hai ki first of all realise your connection with Nitai. se sambandha nahi ja’r. You have to realise your connection with Nitai.

And why am I again saying there is intimacy! There is intimacy! I can give the proof for that, that in no other bhajana Narottama Dasa Thakur has said that you ‘grab’ the Lotus Feet of the Lord. He is only saying that you keep me `close’ to your Lotus Feet. ha ha prabhu nanda-suta, vrishabhanu-suta-juta, koruna karoho ei-baro narottama-dasa koy, na theliho ranga pay, toma bine ke ache amara (Hari Hari Biphale Janama) Keep me ‘close’ Your Lotus Feet but he is never saying that you can ‘catch’ the Lotus Feet because you are not qualified. You are not even qualified to see the Lotus Feet of Radharani what to speak of touching and grabbing and catching. In the entire year only once or twice you have the darshana of Radha’s Lotus feet, what to speak of catching. And it is never advised by any Acharya in the bhajana that you go and grab the lotus feet. But in this bhajana it is a very you know unique sidhantha or it is a very unique understanding by Narottama Dasa Thakur, he is trying to give the siksha that nitaiyer koruna habe, braje radha-krsna pabe, dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani (Nitai Pada Kamala) Dukhani means with both your hands. Dharo means CATCH NITAI’S LOTUS FEET. Can you actually touch the Supreme Personality of Godhead in your degraded position? And it is not saying that first you get purified or you get brahmana diksha or this or that qualification and then you can touch Nitai, for all readers of his bhajana, he is giving this instruction. Catch the Lotus Feet of Nitai. No problem. You are qualified because there is no consideration of qualification.

(Hindi) Aap kissi Bhagvan ke jakr paer aise pakar nhi sakte. Aur na kissi Acharya ne aisa updesha diya ki jakar pakadlo. Sirf Nitai ke charano ko pakadne ka updesha diya gaya hai kyunki Nitai ke charano ko koi bhi pakad sakta hai. Nitai ke charano ko pakadne ke liye apko brahmana diksha lene ki avashyakta nahi hai. Apko koi yogyata nahi chahiye. And this is a very deep line. nitaiyer charana satya, tahara sevaka nitya, nitai-pada sada koro asa And drdha kori dharo nitaira paya and then he is saying dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. And in the first line he is saying nitai-pada-kamala. This entire bhajana is you know full of Nitai’s charana. Everywhere he is first of all saying that Nitai’s Lotus feet are more cooling than millions of moons. Then he is saying without Nitai you cannot attain Radha-Krishna, so ‘catch’ Nitai’s Lotus feet. Then he is saying that when Nitai will be merciful on you, then you will automatically attain Vraja dhama, you will see the chinmaya dhama, you will see the real dhama. Your transcendental eyes, senses will awaken and you will see Radha and Krishna. braje radha-krsna pabe. So dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. Then he is saying that nitai-pada sada koro asa. Then in the last line he is saying narottama bodo duhkhi, nitai more koro sukhi; rakho ranga-charanera pasa. The entire bhajana means take shelter of Nitai. The entire bhajana the only crux, the jist of the bhajana is that just take shelter of Nitai. Lotus Feet means you have to take the shelter of entire Nitai. You cannot take the shelter of Lotus feet exclusively. You have to take shelter of Nitai. Narottama Dasa Thakur is saying.

Today a miracle happened with me and Nitai seva dasa Prabhu. We did not know that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur. We in the afternoon decided to go to teen Goswami Samadhi and we’ll do some japa and Vayulekhan and some bhajana and then we went out of our ashrama and then we went to Kundeshvar Mahadev and we did dandavat to Radhakund Shyamakund and when we stood up, I got an inspiration, I don’t know how that today I should do bhajana in Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave here. Have you seen Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave here in Radhakund? Who has seen? Narottama Dasa Thakur’s bhajana kutir where he performed bhajana after disappearance of Pancha Tattva. Narottama Dasa Thakur came and he stayed in that cave and he performed bhajana. He used to cry day and night. So that cave is there in Radhakund. So out of the blue moon, I never get that desire. Today only, and I did not even know that today is the disappearance of Narottama Dasa Thakur. I suddenly got that inspiration on the banks of Radhakund. I was standing and then I came back. From Radhakund I came back and went inside the cave with Nitai seva dasa prabhuji. Then after chanting two rounds of Hare Krishna Mahamantra, I suddenly got an inspiration to recite Narottama Prabhor ashtakam written by Vishwanath Chakravarti Thakur. An ashtakam, eight verses in glorification of Narottama Dasa Thakur but there was no network in the phone, so I specially requested my friend Nitai seva dasa Prabhu to go to upstairs where network is coming and open Narottama Prabhor ashtakam in Google Chrome and bring it downstairs. Then we recited Narottama Prabhor ashtakam with a lot of bliss. Very loudly we recited, we were singing actually. namo namah srila narottamaya namo namah srila narottamaya Then I changed two more rounds of Mahamantra and did some Vayulekhan. And then in the end we sang Hare Krishna Mahamantra for Narottama Dasa Thakur’s pleasure. Then I came back from the cave and I reached the ashrama, I opened up my phone and Nitai Putra Dasa Prabhu had written that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur. I got goosebumps on my body. Because it was such a great coincidence that I did not even know that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur and somehow Radharani gave that inspiration. I went to the cave. I did bhajana. I sang Narottama Prabhor ashtakam and then I came back. And then I came to know that today is Narottama Dasa Thakur’s disappearance. This happened one month ago also when Srivasa Pandit’s disappearance was there. We did katha on Srivasa Pandit accidentally and after the Katha was over, we opened our telegram app and somebody sent that message that today is disappearance day of Srivasa Pandit. Then also I got surprised. So this is the mercy of Nitai that even if you forget the appearance or disappearance of an Acharya, Nitai will make you celebrate that. And let me tell you one another miracle that today I ate after 1 p.m. Accidentally I fasted after noon 12 p.m. and that also was not planned. At 1:30 p.m. I accepted grains before that I just had to glasses of mausami juice. So I was thanking Nitai that Oh Nitai! You are so merciful that I am so neglectful that I did not even check whether today is an appearance tithi or disappearance tithi or not. But You made me celebrate that. And unknowingly I was celebrating Narottama Dasa Thakur’s disappearance. And I was fasting also and celebrating also. This is entirely Nitai’s mercy. (Claps) And we are experiencing this everyday in some form or the other Nitai is bestowing so much mercy. That is why we force so much vigour and zeal and power, we want everyone to take shelter of Nitai because Nitai will surprise you every morning, every afternoon, every evening with new and new miracles. Miracles will become common in your life. Very common. And for entire 30 minutes he was having goosebumps in his body in Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave. For 30 minutes he was having goosebumps, not for 30 seconds for 30 minutes. For half an hour he was having goosebumps constantly goosebumps. So this is all possible by Nitai’s mercy. For today I think I will wind up now. Tomorrow hopefully Srila Nitaipreshthji Gurudev Ji will come out of his bhajana kutir and give us some real Nitai nectar, not hollow unrealised words like me. I am just speaking mechanically but he speaks from his heart with full realisation. So we will do some kirtana now in the end for 5 or 10 minutes. Then we will have some prasadam. Then bhakti yoga nidra in Radhakund. Not just yoga nidra but bhakti yoga nidra. So now we’ll try to. (Hindi) Sorry main Hindi mein pura anuwad nahi kar paya kyunki samay kam tha aur zyada bolna tha. Abhi hum Nitai ki kripa ki bheek maangege kirtana mein. We will try to gain Nitai’s attention and request Him for His kripa kataksh. Sidelong merciful glance. Not request Him but we will beg. We should beg because Nitai was begging from door to door. He had no ego. Abhimana sunya. He had no ego. (Hindi) unko bheek maangne mein koi sharam nahi aayi, humein bheek maangne mein sharam aati hai. Woh sakshat Bhagwan hone ke baad. He was the Supreme Personality of Godhead and He had no shame, no hesitation, no ego when he went from door to door and he was begging. The Supreme Personality of Godhead, Sakshat Balrama Sarva Shaktidhara, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, He was not having any ego in begging and we fallen souls, we vibhinamsha, tathastha shakti, badha jiva, badha souls, we have ego that too in front of the Lord. We may have ego in front of some ordinary person. But why are we having ego in front of the Supreme Personality of Godhead who had no ego in begging from us? He was begging from us and we can’t beg from Him? That is very shameful. So we should not request, we should beg Nitai and for begging we should turn off the lights where we can cry. Shall we turn of the lights? We can turn off the lights. Now the recording can stop.

For 5-10 minutes we will beg which is the Nitai kirtana plus begging session. Srila Gurudev Maharaj ki Jaya! Doyal Nitaichand ki Jaya! Sri Pancha Tattva ki Jaya! Sri Radha Madan Mohan ki Jaya! Sri Radha Gopinatha ki Jaya! Hari nama Sankirtana yajna ki Jaya! Nitai nama Sankirtana yajna ki Jaya! Nitai Gaur Premanande Hari Haribooolll! (Kirtana begins)

Yatha Krishna Tatha Nitai!

It is stated in the Vedas:

yasya deve para bhaktir
yatha deve tatha gurau
tasyaite kathita hy arthah
prakasante mahatmanah
(Svetasvatara Upanisad 6.23)

“Only unto those great souls who have implicit faith in both the Lord and the spiritual master are all the imports of Vedic knowledge automatically revealed.”

You must be well aware of this important Vedic verse. But did you know that this verse is actually pointing towards Nitai bhakti? It is generally told that Para-bhakti is exclusively meant for the Supreme Personality of Godhead Gauranga-Krishna. However, this verse advocates that the faith and devotion which we have for Gauranga-Krishna, that same faith and devotion we should have for the spiritual master, if not more. In fact, para-bhakti must be first applied to the spiritual master and then only it can be applied to the Supreme Lord Gaur-Krishna. To such a devotee, in fact, to such a mahatma (great soul), all the imports of the Vedic knowledge are automatically revealed. Here, the word Guru is surely and primarliy applicable to the Adi Guru, the original spiritual master of all living entities, Lord Nitai. How can we have equal faith in our Guru and Krishna when don’t even have equal faith in Adi-Guru Nitai and Krishna. This is false logic. Nitai is the fountainhead of all Gurus. He cannot be bypassed.

Majority of devotees do not factually have equal faith in Nitai and Krishna. What to speak of having equal devotion! And not knowing Akhand-Guru-tattva, they directly want to have faith in their own Diksha Guru and Shiksha Guru as much as they have in Krishna. But in reality they fail to do so. This is also the reason why the real imports of Vedic knowledge do not settle in their minds and hearts. And eventually they tend to deviate from the path of devotional service because of never-ending philosophical doubts.

This verse also reveals how a Nitaibhakta can grasp the most subtle imports of the scriptures spontaneously. Since a Nitaibhakt is factually having equal faith in Nitai and Krishna, he is sure to understand all tattva quite clearly. Without even making any special effort. And he is sure to develop long lasting and factual faith in his Guru-pada-padma, the Guru-paramapara, and the process of devotional service. All his doubts will be vanquished by the extraordinary mercy of Adi-guru Nitai. This verse literally proves how a Nitaibhakta is truly a mahatma (great soul). Thus, fundamentally, yatha deve tatha gurau means yatha Krishna tatha Nitai. Thank you very much. Joy Nitai! Hare Krishna!

Worthless disciple of Shrila Nitaipreshthji,
Nitaimani das

Mystery Behind Nitai’s Golden Complexion

                                        
Gauranga Mahaprabhu is the combined form of Radha and Krishna. He is Krishna from inside and He has covered Himself with the mood and golden complexion of Shrimati Radhika (“antar krsna bahir gaura”). Krishna is Nyaydheesh (Lord of Justice) but Gaur is Kripadheesh (Lord of Mercy). This transformation in Krishna’s nature is taking place because of Radha’s merciful mood which wraps Krishna. But in the Pastimes of Gaur we find that He did act as Nyaydheesh many times. So we can see that although He was covered by the mood of Ashraya Vigraha, Radha, He was sometimes not able to control His inner mood of Godhood as Vishaya Vigraha, Krishna. He was sometimes acting as the topmost devotee and sometimes as the topmost Lord. It is quite interesting to note that even Nitai had a golden complexion just like that of Gaur.     

Shrila Bhaktisiddhant Saraswati Thakur writes in his commentary to the first verse of Shri Chaitanya Bhagawat, “Since They (Nitai and Gaur) both perform pastimes in the mood of devotees, Their complexions are golden.“

Let me present an explanation to the above quote along with its implications. Krishna became golden because He adopted the mood of His topmost devotee (Radha). Nitai became Golden too, because He was absorbed in the remembrance of Gaur. However, this seems an incomplete reason why Nitai was also having golden complexion. Balaram also turns Shyam sometimes due to intense remembrance of Krishna but He is not having a permanent Shyam complexion. Nitai’s love for Gaur was the same as Balaram’s love for Krishna. Then why Nitai was permanently golden in color? Balaram was mostly having whitish complexion and only sometimes He used to have the complexion of Krishna due to intense remembrance. This even happened with Nitai when He gave darshan to Shrila Krishnadas Kaviraj. He gave darshan in a Shyam complexion because He was intensely absorbed in the remembrance of Krishna. Thus, we must conclude that there was some other reason why Nitai had a permanent golden complexion. 

Actually, when Krishna took the mood of Radhika, Balaram also used this opportunity and took the mood of His expansion Ananga Manjari.There is a very confidential reason behind it. Gaur preached to the fallen souls through Nitai. He Himself was having Radha bhav but He did not come to give Radha bhav to all. He came to give the highest possible bhav which can be attained by jivas, that is, Radha’s palya dasi bhav. Here comes Nitai. He distributed this highest Manjari bhav after relishing it Himself by adopting the mood of Anang Manjari. This is precisely the reason why Shrila Nitaipreshthji addresses Nitai as Manjari-bhav data. Even Nitai’s own Sakhas began worshipping Radha-Krishna deities this time. This is also a confidential reason why Nitai is more merciful than Gaur as He is a devotee both inside (servitor Godhead) and outside (Radha’s palya dasi), whereas Gaur is a devotee only from outside. Thus, we don’t see any fluctuations in the merciful nature of Nitai but we can see that in the nature of Gaur who sometimes became very strict even with His own personal associates. Moreover, we know that the Manjaris are more merciful than even Radha. Krishna adopted Radha bhav and Balaram adopted Radha’s palya dasi bhav. So who will be more merciful? Gaur or Nitai? 

Worthless disciple of Shrila Nitaipreshthji, 

Nitaimani das

Why Nitai Manifested a Separate Dham in Kali Yug?

 

Have you ever wondered why Nitai manifested a separate Dham in Kali Yug? Ram and Lakshan had a common Dham Ayodhya. Krishna and Balaram had common Dhams (Gokul, Nanda Gaon, Mathura, and Dwarka). But why Nitai chose to have a separate Dham (Ekachakra) this time? In Treta Yug, Ram and Lakshman had a common father (Dasharath) but different mothers (Kaushalya and Sumitra). In Dwapar Yug, Krishna and Balaram too had a common father (Vasudev) but different mothers (Devaki and Rohini). Then, why in Kali Yug Nitai and Gaur, the two eternal and inseparable brothers, had neither a common father nor a common mother? Have you ever thought about it? What was the need for Nitai to manifest a separate Dham physically apart from His dearmost brother’s Navadvip Dham? Was Nitai trying to give some hint to all of us? What was Nitai trying to indicate by this unusual step?

As far as Lakshman is concerned, He is always remembered in relationship with Lord Ramachandra. The same is true for Balaram . He is never remembered independently. He is only remembered with reference to Shri Krishna. However, the vice-versa is not true. It is not at all true that Krishna and Ram are remembered only with a reference to Balaram and Lakshman respectively. However, in Kali Yug, for the first time, the vice-versa is going to be true. Exclusive Nitai bhajan is increasngly becoming the need of the hour with the decreasing spiritual quotient of the masses. People will have to take exclusive shelter of Nitai and His Name as separate entities, not considering them subordinate to Gaur and HIs Name. If shelter of Ram and Krishna can be taken without mentioning Lakshman and Balaram, then why, for a change, such an exclusive shelter not be taken of Nitai this time? By manifesting a separate Dham, in whch Nitai is Mahaprabhu, not Gaur, Nitai has hinted at the fact that He would be worshipped exclusively in Kali Yug as people will lose all qualification to take shelter of Gauranga. Gaur appeared in Navadvip where the Holy Ganges was already flowing but Nitai appeared in Radh Desh where people had no hope of deliverance.

By manifesting a ‘separate’ Dham in Kali Yug, Nitai has given an indication that for the first time His name and glories will be preached ‘separately’ from Gaur. In other words, this is the very rationale behind the formation of the Nitai Vayulekhan Mission. Nitai’s manifestation of a separate Dham is a prediction of this Mission which will promote exclusive attachment to Nitai as the only means of deliverance in Kali Yug, principally. via the process of Nitai Vayulekhan.

Worthless disciple of Shrila Nitaipreshthji,
Nitaimani das