From a mixture of milk and water, a Hansa (swan) drinks only milk and leaves the water.
And Nitai is Param-Hansa Shiromani. (69th name from 108 names of Nitai written by Shrila Nitaipreshthji Gurudev)
This means He is the topmost ignorer of all your bad qualities and disqualifications. He just accepts whatever little goodness is there in you and bestows upon you His boundless mercy based on that tiny goodness.
O Nitai, you may fulfill all my desires. Or all my desires may remain unfulfilled. My only prayer to You is “keep me engaged in your devotional service till the end of my life without any expectation of wish fulfillment”.
My major realisation of recent Navadvip Yatra with Nitai Sena was:
“I miss Ekachakra!!!!!!! Take me back!”
Nitai Bhakti aisi karo ki Guru ko aap pe naaz ho.
Aur Guru Bhakti aisi karo ki Nitai ko aap pe naaz ho.
It is true that in this age of Kali it is extremely difficult to find a real Guru. However, it is also true that when a disciple is ready, a Guru appears automatically. But the problem is that in this Kali Yuga, people themselves fail to become genuine seekers of a genuine Guru. It is a hopeless situation. That is why there is an urgent need to spread Nitai’s name all over. Nitai acts as the best Guru of even those who are not seeking any real spiritual progress.
For genuine seekers, a genuine Guru appears.
For ignorant fools, Adi-Guru Nitai appears.
O Nitai! Who am I to cause the slightest pain, discomfort, or sadness to your beloved devotees? Is there any greater misuse of my free will than this? What a fool I am!
He Nitai! No matter how much I try to serve you or please you, everything is useless unless I learn to please your devotees and serve them wholeheartedly with utmost respect.
He Nitai! I think I aspire to attain your love. But if I were really serious then I would not maintain so much envy and hatred towards your devotees.
A Vaishnav is not supposed to give pain to any living entity. But I’m such a wretch that I dare to cause pain and inconvenience to the rarest and holiest Nitaibhakts.
My casual behavior towards your devotees shows how low is my regard and devotion for you Nitai.
Narrotam das Thakhur says “Nitai pada sada karo ash”.. That is, 24*7 hanker for the attainment and service of Nitai’s lotus feet. I wish I could hanker like this for a single moment at least. But I have no time. I’m 24*7 engrossed in hankering for material pleasures and making unlimited plans for sense gratification and self-aggrandizement.
निताइ! When we are unable to handle the materialistic vibrations of this world, we take shelter of the Dhams. We find real solace in the Dhams. If there were no Dhams, it would have been so difficult for the devotees to survive in this material world. The Lord appears and then disappears. But the Dhams remain for delivering the conditioned souls by awarding them immense sukriti and for giving life to the devotees. Existence of Dhams in this material world is such a great blessing. It is the greatest good fortune for us. If there were no Dhams, where would we go? Where?
When someone leaves his body in the Dhams, he attains the highest destination as kripa-siddhi. How merciful! Who is behind all this? It is Nitai only, the most-caring father of all conditioned souls, who manifests in the form of the Dhams. He is the one who gives solace in the form of the Dhams. He is the one who gives protection in the form of the Dhams. He is the one who gives everyone a chance to attain kripa-siddhi by leaving the body in the Dhams. Who else can think so much about us? How can we be so ungrateful? How can we not realize and feel gratitude for Nitai’s supreme mercy in the form of the Dhams? निताइ
P.S. The greatest good fortune is to be in the Dham for even a single moment. That is the greatest happiness which can be attained by the jiva because this Dham is also Nitai. And Nitai is Nityananda. Being in dham means being with Nitai constantly. One can feel constant association of Nitai.
In the realm of devotional service (Bhakti) if you try to become too practical then you’ll never become ideal. However, if you try to become ideal then the Lord makes everything practical. So go beyond what is practical and embrace what is ideal fearlessly. People may misunderstand idealism but the Lord understands it very well and even appreciates it.
The most striking quality of Krishna is that He is bhakta-vatsal. And the most striking quality of Nitai is that He is abhakta-vatsal too. Krishna has a lot of Vatsalya for his surrendered devotees. But Nitai has immense Vatsalya for all living entities. Uttam adham kichu na kare vichar.
Harinam Japa is a thread to bind Krishna. Harinam Kirtan is a rope to bind Krishna. But where is Krishna? First He needs to come in your heart then only you can bind Him with your thread or rope. What brings Krishna in your heart in the first place? Nitai’s name. (Avashya paibe Krishnachandra sei jane) Therefore, Nitainam Lekhan ki Jaya!
Pearls of the ocean can’t be obtained simply by standing on the shore. One has to muster courage and dive deep. No pain no gain! Hare Krishna!
If you can’t make this extremely difficult move but still aspire for pearls then simply put your faith in Nitai and He will get the pearls for you. No pain still gain. Joy Nitai!
(Self-advice) Either with closed or open eyes, just try to see the most merciful syllables of निताइ‘s name and nothing else. Don’t engage your eyes in seeing any other beautiful object, person, or scene. Otherwise you won’t be able to see the syllables of Nitai Nam clearly. It is up to you now. What do you really want to see?
āśraya loiyā bhaje, tāre kṛṣṇa nāhi tyaje,
āra saba more akāraṇa
ṭhākura vaiṣṇava pada, avanīra sampada,
śuno bhāi hoiyā eka mana
(Thakur Vaishnava Pada by Srila Narottama Das Thakur)
Srila Narottama Das Thakur has beautifully described the importance of taking shelter of vaishnavas in one’s life. He says that make the lotus feet of vaishnavas as your greatest wealth and treasure. Make them the most cherished assets in your life. And he says śuno bhāi hoiyā eka mana. He says with rapt attention, listen to this thing that āśraya loiyā bhaje, tāre kṛṣṇa nāhi tyaje, that if you are surrendered to a vaishnava, if you are dedicated, you have taken shelter of a vaishnava, vaishnavas, if you are sheltered at the lotus feet of the vaishnavas, then Krishna will never reject you. If you perform Krishna bhajana in the shelter of the vaishnavas, then Krishna will not reject you. Even if you make some mistake, Krishna will still, you know consider you as His own because of your love, dedication and surrender for the vaishnavas. So if you do not want to enter the rejected list of Krishna, then never forsake the shelter of vaishnavas. Never try to to worship Krishna independently. Always try to perform Krishna bhakti as humble servants of vaishnavas in their shelter, then you are in a very very safe position. Vaishnavas will always protect you from falling down, from deviating. So its very important to always seek protection and shelter of patita pavana Vaishnava Thakur.
When the least mercy is expected, Nitai surprises you by giving the highest.
Our consciousness just before we fall asleep, to a large extent, determines the consciousness that we are going to have just after we wake up in the morning. So Nitai Vayulekhan done just before sleeping actually prepares you to do it immediately after getting up in the morning.
Nitai Vayulekhan just before sleeping tremendously increases our chances of having Hari-Guru-Vaishnav filled dreams while we are asleep.
Completing one’s Sadhana at any cost before sleeping is a very important teaching of Vaishnav-sarvabhauma Shrila Jagannath das Babaji. We gain so much spiritual strength if we simply follow this one instruction very carefully.
The whole world may go upside down but as long as we are in the association of Nitaibhakts, we don’t care!
The Lord may take anything away from us but may He allow us to remain in the association of simple and humble Nitaibhakts till our last breath.
Even if we hurt a devotee unintentionally we must beg for forgiveness and repent, then what to speak of intentionally hurting a devotee!
Nitai transforms sudurlabham into susulabham..
Real NIRJAN Bhajan means that Bhajan which is performed without the desire for “JAN” (name-fame and amassing followers… Na dhanam NA JANAM..)
Is by Krishna and is for Krishna. All other religious traditions and organizations, spiritual sects they agree to this point only that this entire creation is ‘of God’ and ‘by God’. But the Vaishnavasim, the core Vaishnava philosophy is laying emphasis. Mukund Vasudev and Chotha Haridas and so many associates of Mahaprabhu were there, but Mahaprabhu gave the responsibility of delivering the fallen souls only to Nitai. And He said Nitai – ‘You take your sakha, You take Your associates and You deliver and You give the highest love to all fallen souls.’ So the first meaning of Nitai is ‘I am Yours’. This is Nitai’s philosophy. You don’t have to say ‘I am Yours’, Nitai will say ‘I am Yours’. And the second meaning is ‘Take Me’. That is why Srila Locana Das Thakur, he writes in that bhajana,
akrodha paramānanda nityānanda rāya abhimāna śūnya nitāi nagare beḍāya adhama patita jīvera dvāre dvāre giyā harināma mahā-mantra dicchena bilāiyā And in the end of this bhajana, Locana Das Thakur is sayinghena avatāre jā’ra rati nā janmila locana bale sei pāpī ela āra gela
That if you don’t get attached to such a Lord like Nitai, then you are the most sinful person. You are papi if you don’t get attached to Nitai, who is not expecting you to do anything, who is ready to do everything for you, who is ready to overlook all your faults, all your mistakes, all your offenses, all your anarthas. He is ready to overlook all and still you only wish to get attached to Radharani and Banke Bihari and Gaursundara, who first want you to get purified, who first want you to get rid of all the offenses, the 10 dhama apradha, the 10 nama apradha, the 64 seva apradha and then the anarthas mentioned in Madhurya Kadambini and other scriptures. There are so many things we need to get rid of to be accepted by Gaura Radha-Krishna as Their own. But there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no qualification, no eligibility criteria laid down by Nitai to accept you as His own. Absolutely nothing! And still you don’t want to get attached to Nitai. There is one nama apradha that if you hear the glories of the Hari nama and you don’t get attached to Hari nama, then that is also an offense. Similarly if you come to know about Nitai (aside: Sri Sri Gaura Nitai ki Jaya) you come to know about Nitai, the most merciful Lord of the entire creation in past, present and future and if you don’t get attached then you are the most sinful. hena avatāre jā’ra rati nā janmila locana bale sei pāpī ela āra gela ela āra gela means he came and he went. His life was waste. That person who did not get attached to Nitai, this crazy Lord Nitai, this unique form of the Godhead, then his entire life is waste and he is the most sinful. No other sins are going to keep you away from Gaura Radha-Krishna, only this sin is going to keep you away from Gaura Radha-Krishna – this sin is not getting attached to Nitai. Jagai and Madhai were performing all sinful acts in Navadvipa dhama, but what Bhaktivinoda Thakur writes in Navadvipa Dhama Mahatmaya? He writes- navadvīpe śata śata aparādha kari’ anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’ (Chapter 1, Glories of Dhama, Verse 57) Even if you perform hundreds of sins in Navadvipa, you will be instantly forgiven and delivered by Doyal Nitai. anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’, navadvīpe śata śata aparādha kari. śata śata means hundreds of offenses. Navadvipe. anāyāse means very easily, very quickly. anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’. tari means you will be delivered. And the proof is Jagai and Madhai. brajendra-nandana jei, śacī-suta hoilo sei, balarāma hoilo nitāi dīna-hīna jata chilo, hari-nāme uddhārilo, tāra śākṣī jagāi mādhāi golokera prema-dhana, hari-nāma-sańkīrtana, rati nā janmilo kene tāy hā hā prabhu nanda-suta, vṛṣabhānu-sutā-juta, koruṇā karoho ei-bāro narottama-dāsa koy, nā ṭheliho rāńgā pāy, tomā bine ke āche āmāra Doyal Nitaaaaii!!!! Doyal Nitaaaaii!!! (Hari Hari Biphale Janama Bhajan by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) So this bhajana is by Narottama Dasa only. narottama-dāsa koy, nā ṭheliho rāńgā pāy. Narottama Dasa is saying – “Please don’t keep me away from Your Lotus Feet. Oh Nitai Gaura Radhe-Shyama! Please keep me close to Your Lotus Feet.” tomā bine ke āche āmāra. “There is no one in my entire life who I can call as my own. Only You I can call as my own.” tomā bine ke āche āmāra. āmāra’ bolite prabhu! āre kichu nāi. (Amar Bolite Prabhu by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur). I cannot call anyone as my own. Everybody is in their own. Nobody is there for anyone in this world. Only Nitai Gaura and Radha-Krishna are yours. The vaishnavas, the devotees of Nitai Gaura RadhaKrishna are yours, the spiritual master, the spiritual masters, the shiksha gurus and the diksha gurus and the vaishnavas, and Nitai Gaura Radhe-Shyama, They are yours. tomā bine ke āche āmāra. So the proof is that Nitai delivered Jagai and Madhai despite all their disqualifications. They were the epitome of sin. They had reached the height of sin. They used to perform murders and robberies and rapes and what not? All kind of sinful activities they would indulge in. But just because they happened to come in contact with Nityananda. Just because of their contact with Nitai, they got an entry in that Srivasa Angana in which a 25 year veteran brahmachari couldn’t enter, who was only drinking milk for 25 years, he was not performing any sin, but that brahmachari did not receive the mercy of Nitai. He was sinless, but he had that ego that I am a brahmachari, I only drink milk. He was not allowed that Srivasa Angana. Many great pandits and scholars and brahamins of Navadvipa were not allowed inside Srivasa Angana, but those two heroes of sins, Jagai and Madhai. Hero or villain? (laughs) Villians! Those two greatest villians of Navadvipa, they were allowed inside Srivasa Angana in one day. One day before they were the greatest sinners and within 24 hours, they were inside Srivasa Angana. That is Nitaaaiiii!! Devotees- Haribooolll!! That is the mercy, the kripa siddhi of Doyal Nitai. Their destination was the Sudarsan Chakra. That was the only gati of Jagai and Madhai. But by Nitai’s interference and Nitai’s, you know, protection Jagai and Madhai, He finally compelled Chaitanya Mahaprabhu to embrace Jagai and Madhai. He wanted to severe the heads. He wanted to use His chakra on Jagai and Madhai. But by Nitai’s merciful interference they were finally in the arms of Gaursundara. In the arms! Can you imagine?
That is why Nitai is known as agatira gati nitāi sādhu loke bole. dayā koro more nitāi, dayā koro more agatira gati nitāi sādhu loke bole (Doya Koro More Nitai by Kanu Ramadasa Thakura) A real Vaishnava, a real Guru, a real preacher, a real sadhu should only emphasize on the importance of Nitai because rest everything Nitai will give. What can we do? We can’t do anything. Bhaktivinoda Thakur is sayingkarama geyana, kichu nahi mora, sadhana bhajana nai tumi krpa-moya, ami to kangala, ahaituki krpa cai (Bhajana Lalsa by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur) What is Bhaktivinoda Thakur saying? He is saying that just accept that you can’t do sadhana, you can’t do bhajana, you don’t have karma, you don’t have jnana, you don’t have any qualification or yogyata to attain Gauranga and Radha-Shyama. You can only consider yourself as a kangaal and as a beggar and you can start begging for ahaituki kripa means causeless mercy because there is no cause to give you mercy. Even though he himself was performing a lot of sadhana but even if you perform sadhana, you should always consider your sadhana as zero. On the strength of sadhana, you can never attain the Lord. Sadhana is to keep you disciplined. Sadhana is to teach you, you know how to engage your senses in the service of the Lord. But attainment of the Lord is impossible without mercy. And who is the Lord of mercy? Doyal Nitai! Soheno nitai bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai dridha kori’ dharo nitair pay (Nitai Pada Kamla by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) I will not explain the meaning of Nityananda today. I will only discuss Nitai. Nitai is saying ‘I am yours’. There is so much intimacy, there is no gap between the soul and the God. When Nitai comes into the picture, there is no you know, level difference. In fact He takes a lower position than you. And you are the lowest of all. You are the most fallen. But He will accept a lower position than you and then He will approach you. Gauranga Radhe-Shyama will always remain above you but Nitai will accept a lower position than you. He will fall on the ground. dante tṛṇa dhari’ Nitai dante tṛṇa dhari’ (Akrodha Paramananda by Srila Locana Das Thakur).
Which Lord has placed straw between His teeth and fallen at the feet of the fallen souls? No Lord has placed straw in His teeth. Rupa and Sanatana placed straw in their teeth when they approached Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. But Nitai placed a straw in His teeth when He approaches the most degraded fallen souls of Kaliyuga. Can you imagine? jā’re dekhe tā’re kahe dante tṛṇa dhari’ ‘āmāre kiniyā laha. āmāre kiniyā laha means – ‘Please buy Me. Please purchase Me. I am for sale. Purchase Me. Just worship Gaursundara.’ That is the meaning of Nitai. ‘Take Me. Purchase Me. Buy Me.’ That is the meaning of Nitai. There is so much intimacy between the fallen souls and Nitai that there is no wall or barrier which stops you from getting, you know getting the ashta sattvik vikara from Nitai. You can very easily get the ashta sattvik vikara from Nitai. Every other Lord will first test you. You have to pass the test and then you will be rewarded with the ashta sattvik vikara. First the other Lord will tempt you, give you material enjoyment, when you reject that. bhukti-mukti-spriha yavat pishaci (Srila Rupa Goswami in Bhakti-rasamrita-sindhu 1.2.22). When you consider the desire for sense enjoyment as witches, then only Krishna will say that you are fit to receive the sandrananda-visheshatma shri-krishnakarshini ca sa. klesha-ghni shubhada moksha-laghuta-krit sudurlabha sandrananda-visheshatma shri-krishnakarshini ca sa (Shrila Rupa Gosvami, Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu 1.17) The six symptoms of pure bhakti, you know the six results of pure bhakti. First you have to show Krishna that you want nothing but Krishna, then only Krishna will give you the highest kind of sandrananda-visheshatma. sandrananda, the highest ananda. But Nitai, His name is Nityananda. In His name only ananda is there. He is the only Lord who has the word ananda in his name. Only Lord! Nityaaananda!! Ananda is present in His name. name nityananda tumi, rupe nityananda; ei tumi nityananda rama murttimanta (Chaitanya-bhagavata, Madhya-khanda 12.18) And ananda, bliss is the ultimate goal. Ananda and love. Ultimate goal for all living entities. And ananda is present eternally in Nitai because He is Nityananda. Even Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s ananda gets increased in the association of Nityananda. It is mentioned in Chaitanya Mangala. Mahaprabhu is saccidananda vigraha but when Nitai enters that hall where Mahaprabhu is sitting, then Mahaprabhu ananda increases. So Nitai has the capacity to increase the pleasure, the bliss of the Supreme Personality of Godhead. So can’t He increase your bliss? Instant bliss comes when we chant Nityananda, when you write Nitai’s name, when you sing Nitai’s name somehow or the other. That is Narottama Dasa Thakur says nitai na bolilo mukhe, majilo samsara-sukhe (Nitai Pada Kamala). He is saying that you are not tasting the real nectar and you are, you know running after material happiness. What happiness can materialistic sense objects give you, which Nitai’s name can’t give you? So why are you not chanting Nitai’s name? nitai na bolilo mukhe, why are you not moving your tongue to chant Nitai and why are you running after the samsara sukha which is in brackets dukha? Sukha and within brackets dukha. (Laughs) And whatever is written in the brackets is the real meaning, whithin the parentheses. Samsara sukha is dukha. vidya-kule ki koribe tar. se sambandha nahi ja’r, britha janma gelo ta’r heno avatare jara rati na janmilo lochan bole sei papi elo ara gelo (Hindi) Koi papa is samsara mein Gaura Radha-Krishna se aapko door rakhne ki shakti nahi rakhta jab tak aap Nitai ke sambandha mein ho. Aur aap sabse adhik Papa shunya hokar bhi agar Nitai ke sampark mein nhi aaoge toh bhi aap Gaur Radha-Krishna ko nahi prapta kar sakte. Kaliyuga mein papa koi ayogyata nhi hai. Proof hai Jagai aur Madhai sabse bade papi. Unko bhi Gaura RadhaKrishna mille. Nitai ki Daya se. So sabse mahatvapoorna shiksha yehi hai ki first of all realise your connection with Nitai. se sambandha nahi ja’r. You have to realise your connection with Nitai.
And why am I again saying there is intimacy! There is intimacy! I can give the proof for that, that in no other bhajana Narottama Dasa Thakur has said that you ‘grab’ the Lotus Feet of the Lord. He is only saying that you keep me `close’ to your Lotus Feet. ha ha prabhu nanda-suta, vrishabhanu-suta-juta, koruna karoho ei-baro narottama-dasa koy, na theliho ranga pay, toma bine ke ache amara (Hari Hari Biphale Janama) Keep me ‘close’ Your Lotus Feet but he is never saying that you can ‘catch’ the Lotus Feet because you are not qualified. You are not even qualified to see the Lotus Feet of Radharani what to speak of touching and grabbing and catching. In the entire year only once or twice you have the darshana of Radha’s Lotus feet, what to speak of catching. And it is never advised by any Acharya in the bhajana that you go and grab the lotus feet. But in this bhajana it is a very you know unique sidhantha or it is a very unique understanding by Narottama Dasa Thakur, he is trying to give the siksha that nitaiyer koruna habe, braje radha-krsna pabe, dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani (Nitai Pada Kamala) Dukhani means with both your hands. Dharo means CATCH NITAI’S LOTUS FEET. Can you actually touch the Supreme Personality of Godhead in your degraded position? And it is not saying that first you get purified or you get brahmana diksha or this or that qualification and then you can touch Nitai, for all readers of his bhajana, he is giving this instruction. Catch the Lotus Feet of Nitai. No problem. You are qualified because there is no consideration of qualification.
(Hindi) Aap kissi Bhagvan ke jakr paer aise pakar nhi sakte. Aur na kissi Acharya ne aisa updesha diya ki jakar pakadlo. Sirf Nitai ke charano ko pakadne ka updesha diya gaya hai kyunki Nitai ke charano ko koi bhi pakad sakta hai. Nitai ke charano ko pakadne ke liye apko brahmana diksha lene ki avashyakta nahi hai. Apko koi yogyata nahi chahiye. And this is a very deep line. nitaiyer charana satya, tahara sevaka nitya, nitai-pada sada koro asa And drdha kori dharo nitaira paya and then he is saying dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. And in the first line he is saying nitai-pada-kamala. This entire bhajana is you know full of Nitai’s charana. Everywhere he is first of all saying that Nitai’s Lotus feet are more cooling than millions of moons. Then he is saying without Nitai you cannot attain Radha-Krishna, so ‘catch’ Nitai’s Lotus feet. Then he is saying that when Nitai will be merciful on you, then you will automatically attain Vraja dhama, you will see the chinmaya dhama, you will see the real dhama. Your transcendental eyes, senses will awaken and you will see Radha and Krishna. braje radha-krsna pabe. So dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. Then he is saying that nitai-pada sada koro asa. Then in the last line he is saying narottama bodo duhkhi, nitai more koro sukhi; rakho ranga-charanera pasa. The entire bhajana means take shelter of Nitai. The entire bhajana the only crux, the jist of the bhajana is that just take shelter of Nitai. Lotus Feet means you have to take the shelter of entire Nitai. You cannot take the shelter of Lotus feet exclusively. You have to take shelter of Nitai. Narottama Dasa Thakur is saying.
Today a miracle happened with me and Nitai seva dasa Prabhu. We did not know that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur. We in the afternoon decided to go to teen Goswami Samadhi and we’ll do some japa and Vayulekhan and some bhajana and then we went out of our ashrama and then we went to Kundeshvar Mahadev and we did dandavat to Radhakund Shyamakund and when we stood up, I got an inspiration, I don’t know how that today I should do bhajana in Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave here. Have you seen Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave here in Radhakund? Who has seen? Narottama Dasa Thakur’s bhajana kutir where he performed bhajana after disappearance of Pancha Tattva. Narottama Dasa Thakur came and he stayed in that cave and he performed bhajana. He used to cry day and night. So that cave is there in Radhakund. So out of the blue moon, I never get that desire. Today only, and I did not even know that today is the disappearance of Narottama Dasa Thakur. I suddenly got that inspiration on the banks of Radhakund. I was standing and then I came back. From Radhakund I came back and went inside the cave with Nitai seva dasa prabhuji. Then after chanting two rounds of Hare Krishna Mahamantra, I suddenly got an inspiration to recite Narottama Prabhor ashtakam written by Vishwanath Chakravarti Thakur. An ashtakam, eight verses in glorification of Narottama Dasa Thakur but there was no network in the phone, so I specially requested my friend Nitai seva dasa Prabhu to go to upstairs where network is coming and open Narottama Prabhor ashtakam in Google Chrome and bring it downstairs. Then we recited Narottama Prabhor ashtakam with a lot of bliss. Very loudly we recited, we were singing actually. namo namah srila narottamaya namo namah srila narottamaya Then I changed two more rounds of Mahamantra and did some Vayulekhan. And then in the end we sang Hare Krishna Mahamantra for Narottama Dasa Thakur’s pleasure. Then I came back from the cave and I reached the ashrama, I opened up my phone and Nitai Putra Dasa Prabhu had written that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur. I got goosebumps on my body. Because it was such a great coincidence that I did not even know that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur and somehow Radharani gave that inspiration. I went to the cave. I did bhajana. I sang Narottama Prabhor ashtakam and then I came back. And then I came to know that today is Narottama Dasa Thakur’s disappearance. This happened one month ago also when Srivasa Pandit’s disappearance was there. We did katha on Srivasa Pandit accidentally and after the Katha was over, we opened our telegram app and somebody sent that message that today is disappearance day of Srivasa Pandit. Then also I got surprised. So this is the mercy of Nitai that even if you forget the appearance or disappearance of an Acharya, Nitai will make you celebrate that. And let me tell you one another miracle that today I ate after 1 p.m. Accidentally I fasted after noon 12 p.m. and that also was not planned. At 1:30 p.m. I accepted grains before that I just had to glasses of mausami juice. So I was thanking Nitai that Oh Nitai! You are so merciful that I am so neglectful that I did not even check whether today is an appearance tithi or disappearance tithi or not. But You made me celebrate that. And unknowingly I was celebrating Narottama Dasa Thakur’s disappearance. And I was fasting also and celebrating also. This is entirely Nitai’s mercy. (Claps) And we are experiencing this everyday in some form or the other Nitai is bestowing so much mercy. That is why we force so much vigour and zeal and power, we want everyone to take shelter of Nitai because Nitai will surprise you every morning, every afternoon, every evening with new and new miracles. Miracles will become common in your life. Very common. And for entire 30 minutes he was having goosebumps in his body in Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave. For 30 minutes he was having goosebumps, not for 30 seconds for 30 minutes. For half an hour he was having goosebumps constantly goosebumps. So this is all possible by Nitai’s mercy. For today I think I will wind up now. Tomorrow hopefully Srila Nitaipreshthji Gurudev Ji will come out of his bhajana kutir and give us some real Nitai nectar, not hollow unrealised words like me. I am just speaking mechanically but he speaks from his heart with full realisation. So we will do some kirtana now in the end for 5 or 10 minutes. Then we will have some prasadam. Then bhakti yoga nidra in Radhakund. Not just yoga nidra but bhakti yoga nidra. So now we’ll try to. (Hindi) Sorry main Hindi mein pura anuwad nahi kar paya kyunki samay kam tha aur zyada bolna tha. Abhi hum Nitai ki kripa ki bheek maangege kirtana mein. We will try to gain Nitai’s attention and request Him for His kripa kataksh. Sidelong merciful glance. Not request Him but we will beg. We should beg because Nitai was begging from door to door. He had no ego. Abhimana sunya. He had no ego. (Hindi) unko bheek maangne mein koi sharam nahi aayi, humein bheek maangne mein sharam aati hai. Woh sakshat Bhagwan hone ke baad. He was the Supreme Personality of Godhead and He had no shame, no hesitation, no ego when he went from door to door and he was begging. The Supreme Personality of Godhead, Sakshat Balrama Sarva Shaktidhara, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, He was not having any ego in begging and we fallen souls, we vibhinamsha, tathastha shakti, badha jiva, badha souls, we have ego that too in front of the Lord. We may have ego in front of some ordinary person. But why are we having ego in front of the Supreme Personality of Godhead who had no ego in begging from us? He was begging from us and we can’t beg from Him? That is very shameful. So we should not request, we should beg Nitai and for begging we should turn off the lights where we can cry. Shall we turn of the lights? We can turn off the lights. Now the recording can stop.
For 5-10 minutes we will beg which is the Nitai kirtana plus begging session. Srila Gurudev Maharaj ki Jaya! Doyal Nitaichand ki Jaya! Sri Pancha Tattva ki Jaya! Sri Radha Madan Mohan ki Jaya! Sri Radha Gopinatha ki Jaya! Hari nama Sankirtana yajna ki Jaya! Nitai nama Sankirtana yajna ki Jaya! Nitai Gaur Premanande Hari Haribooolll! (Kirtana begins)