A Humble Confession to Doyal Nitai

:pray: O Nitai! Who am I to cause the slightest pain, discomfort, or sadness to your beloved devotees? Is there any greater misuse of my free will than this? What a fool I am!

:pray: He Nitai! No matter how much I try to serve you or please you, everything is useless unless I learn to please your devotees and serve them wholeheartedly with utmost respect.

:pray: He Nitai! I think I aspire to attain your love. But if I were really serious then I would not maintain so much envy and hatred towards your devotees.

:pray: A Vaishnav is not supposed to give pain to any living entity. But I’m such a wretch that I dare to cause pain and inconvenience to the rarest and holiest Nitaibhakts.

:pray: My casual behavior towards your devotees shows how low is my regard and devotion for you Nitai.

:hibiscus: Narrotam das Thakhur says “Nitai pada sada karo ash”.. That is, 24*7 hanker for the attainment and service of Nitai’s lotus feet. I wish I could hanker like this for a single moment at least. But I have no time. I’m 24*7 engrossed in hankering for material pleasures and making unlimited plans for sense gratification and self-aggrandizement.

What brings Krishna in your heart ?

In the realm of devotional service (Bhakti) if you try to become too practical then you’ll never become ideal. However, if you try to become ideal then the Lord makes everything practical.  So go beyond what is practical and embrace what is ideal fearlessly. People may misunderstand idealism but the Lord understands it very well and even appreciates it.

The most striking quality of Krishna is that He is bhakta-vatsal. And the most striking quality of Nitai is that He is abhakta-vatsal too.  Krishna has a lot of Vatsalya for his surrendered devotees. But Nitai has immense Vatsalya for all living entities. Uttam adham kichu na kare vichar.

Harinam Japa is a thread to bind Krishna. Harinam Kirtan is a rope to bind Krishna. But where is Krishna? First He needs to come in your heart then only you can bind Him with your thread or rope. What brings Krishna in your heart in the first place? Nitai’s name. (Avashya paibe Krishnachandra sei jane) Therefore, Nitainam Lekhan ki Jaya!

 

Pearls of the ocean can’t be obtained simply by standing on the shore. One has to muster courage and dive deep. No pain no gain! Hare Krishna!
If you can’t make this extremely difficult move but still aspire for pearls then simply put your faith in Nitai and He will get the pearls for you. No pain still gain. Joy Nitai!

(Self-advice) Either with closed or open eyes, just try to see the most merciful syllables of निताइ‘s name and nothing else. Don’t engage your eyes in seeing any other beautiful object, person, or scene. Otherwise you won’t be able to see the syllables of Nitai Nam clearly. It is up to you now. What do you really want to see?

 

Jiva Goswami meets Nitai

Transcription:

Jiva Goswami meets Nitai (Part 6)

By HG Nitaimani Das Prabhuji

September 23, 2016

Joy Joy Nitai! Joy Nitai Vayulekhan! Joy Srila Nitaipreshthji! Joy Srila Gurudev! Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare I hope it’s audible who all are listening to it live online. Is the sound quality fine? Joy Nitai!! (Kirtana) Srila Nitaichand ki jaya! Srila Navadvipa Dhaam Mahatmaya ki jaya! Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur ki jaya! Srila Jiva Goswami ki jaya! So we were discussing the 19th verse of fourth chapter of Navadvipa Dhaam Mahatmaya yesterday and day before yesterday. Both the days we have discussed this verse. sāttvika-vikāra-pūrṇa jīvera śarīra dekhi’ jīva bali’ sabe karilena sthira [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 19] So we were discussing how Srila Jiva Goswami ‘s entire transcedental body is filled with ashta saatvik vikaar and the servants of Nityananda Prabhu, they were ordered by Nitai to bring Srila Jiva Goswami to Nitai. So the servants when they saw this divine personality is filled with astha saatvika vikaar, so those servants they immediately recognised that this must be Jiva. No one can manifest such ecstatic transformations other than that person who is described by Nitai’s special mercy. Nitai, He gave that description to the servants, that description is not mentioned in this book obviously. From this we can deduce cause when they saw the ashta saatvik vikaar in Jiva Goswami ‘s transcedental body, then immediately they said: dekhi’ ‘jīva’ bali’ sabe karilena sthira. As soon as Srila Jiva Goswami’s transcedental body is filled with ashta saatvik vikaar, immediately they said ‘Jiva’, immediately that word came from their mouth, ‘Jiva’. This is ‘Jiva’. Why did they say ‘Jiva’ immediately upon seeing the ecstatic symptoms? Because Nitai must have given that description that if you find person whose transcedental body is filled with ashta saatvik vikaar, then you must know then he is definitely Srila Jiva Goswami. Devotees- Haribolll!! In this book, (Hindi) is book mein, granth mein ye varnan to nahi diya. Iss granth mein toh atharvein(18th) shlok me yehi likha hai ki Nitai ne apne daasgano ko aagya diya ki Jiva Goswami ko yaha le aao. ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe śrī-jīve ānite aneka vaiṣṇava yāya jīve sambodhite [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 18] So in this granth aisa nahi likha ki Nitai ne Jiva Goswami ka kya varnan dia hai, lekin 19th shlok se hum aisa samajh sakte hai jase Nitai ke paarshado ne, Nitai ke daasgano ne Jiva Goswami ko dekha ek aise vyakti ko dekha jiska poora shareer asthta saatvik vikaar se bhara hua hai, usi samaya unhone apne mukh se ek hi shabda dhwani nikaali. ‘Jiva’! ‘Jiva’! Ye to Jiva hai! Ye to Jiva iska matlab Nitai ne aisa varnan kiya tha ki aisa vyaktitva tumhe dikhai dega jo ashta saatvika vikaaro se bhara hua hoga. dekhi’ jīva bali’ sabe karilena sthira. karilena sthira means now they were fully convinced that this is Jiva, this must be Jiva, let us go near him and let us tell him what Nitai has told us, what Nitai has ordered us. That Nitai has personally sent us to bring you. That you are so special to Nitai. So now the servants of Nitai they are fully convinced that this must be Jiva. He cannot be anyone else. so now they are going near to Jiva Goswami and they are going to tell, convey the order of Nityananda Prabhu and let us see what will be the reaction of Srila Jiva Goswami. And how they told Nitai’s order to Jiva Goswami in the next verse. keha keha āge giyā mahāprema-bhare nityānanda-prabhu-ājñā vijñāpana kare [NDM, Chapter 4, verse 20] (Kirtana) sāttvika-vikāra-pūrṇa ‘śrī-jīvera’ śarīra dekhi’ ‘jīva’ bali’ sabe karilena sthira (NDM, Chapter 4, verse 19) So these ashta saatvik vikaar, this is the identity proof, id card of Srila Jiva Goswami. Like we discussed that day for ordinary vaishnavas, the identity proof, the identity card may be a tilaka or a kanthi mala. Mala, tilak in 12 places on the body and kanthi mala and a shikha, dhoti, kurta. This type of dress marks on the body they allow everyone else to recognise a vaishnava. That is the identity proof. But for pure devotees, for extraordinary vaishnavas, the defining feature is the ashta saatvik vikaar. There may be tilak and kanthi mala and dhoti and kurta and shikha even on the body of the extraordinary vaishnava, but the defining characteristic is ‘ashta saatvik vikaar’. That is the speciality which will not be found in the bodies of the ordinary vaishnavas. So the servants they could confirm the identity. Like we check the id card, if confirmed a green signal is there, if it is not confirmed, it’s a red signal. So they saw that Srila Jiva Goswami’s body was trembling, shedding tears in ecstacy, having goosebumps, his voice was chocking, his body color was changing, he was crying and he was getting unconscious. They saw with their own eyes and then they confirmed the identity of Srila Jiva Goswami. And when they saw this ashta saatvik vikaar, you know this is the rare achievement in human life to attain the ashta saatvik vikaar, so when they saw this ashta saatvik vikaar in the body of Jiva Goswami, externally they were saying this is Jiva but internally they were saying this is Nityasidhha Jiva. Devotees-Haribolll!! Internally they realised ‘No, this is not a baddha jiva, baddha jiva cannot experience such ecstacy, my dear friends!’. With their eyes they were talking to each other. They looked into each other’s eyes and then they were confirming. ‘Oho!!Nityasidhha has come in Navadvipa, a badhha jiva has not come to meet Nitai. See our Lord is so special, our master Nitai is so special. That not only baddha jiva come to meet our Lord, our master but even Nityasiddha Jiva’s hanker so much to attain the darshan, the service of Doyal Nitai. Devotees- Haribooolll!! (Hindi) Nitai ke daasgan, Nitai ke paarshad apne netron se ek dusre se baat cheet kar re hai. Apni drishti se ek dusre ki ankhon me aankhein daalke, ek dusre ko keh rahe hai- ‘Koi bhaddha jiva nahi aaya. Nitai se milne ye ashta saatvik vikaar purna shareer dekhkar aisa maalum padta hai ki ek Nityasidhha jiva aaya hai. Ispe garva hona chahiye ki humare Prabhu Nitai se baddha jiva toh milne aate hi hai par uchh koti ke Mahabhagvat nityasiddha bhi humare Nitai ke charno ki sewa ke nirantar abhilaashi hai, ke liye tadapte hai. Nitai ke charano ke darshana ke liye, badhha jiva hi nahi tadapte balki Nityasiddha jiva bhi tadapte hai. We all are like fish out of water when ‘we’ don’t have the service of Nitai, but here ‘we’ not only includes the badhha jivas but also includes the eternally liberated souls Even the eternally liberated souls, the mahabhagvats, they also feel like fish out of water when they are not able to get the service of Nitai. When they are not able to get the darshan of Nitai. Such is the position of Doyal Nitai. Doyal Nitai! Doyal Nitai! Doyal Nitai! (Kirtana) So I hope it is still audible to all those who are listening live online. Another point I would like to discuss from this 19th verse of saatvik vikaar purna. Dekhi Jiva boli. This word jiva is very striking here. Whenever you hear this word ‘Jiva’ especially for Jiva Goswami, the only philosophical point that should come in your mind is that no matter you are a ordinary jiva or extraordinary jiva, no matter you are a neophyte soul or an advanced soul, you are a soul. And for all souls, Nitai’s mercy and Nitai’s service is mandatory. This word is not specifying Nityasiddha jiva or Nityabaddha jiva. This is just one word jiva. So why am I discussing this point from different angle is that there are some devotees those who think that we are so advanced or we have been in Krishna consciousness for so many years, we don’t need to approach Nitai or Balarama. We don’t need the mercy of Nitai. We will do Radha Krishna bhajan. We will meditate on the pastimes, the eternal pastimes of Radha Krishna. We will read the pastimes of Radha Krishna. We will discuss the high level books which contain the position of Radha Krishna. Radhe-Shyama. RadheShyama. We don’t need Nitai, we don’t need Balarama. That is for the new comers.’ There are some devotees who think like this. asatyere satya kori māni ahańkāre matta hoiyā, nitāi-pada pāsariyā (Nitai Pada Kamala by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) Narottam is saying. Here Jiva is saying, there Narottama is saying. heno nitāi bine bhāi, rādhā-kṛṣṇa pāite nāi nitāiyer koruṇā habe, braje rādhā-kṛṣṇa pābe (Nitai Pada Kamala by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) Automatically you will get Radha-Krishna, simply by receiving the mercy of Nitai. So never think you are too high for Nitai. You are never too high in bhakti for Nitai. Just keep this point in your mind. (Hindi) Aap kabhi bhi itni uchai pe nahi pahuchne wale jaha pe aakar Nitai ki avashyakta hi nahi. Aisi koi uchai nahi jahan apko Nitai nahi chahiye. Chaahe kitne bhi bade bhakta ban jaa, apko har avastha mein, har uchayi mein Nitai chahiye agar aapko is janam me RadhaKrishna ke darshan chahiye. Isliye yaha par word use kia gaya hai ‘jiva’. Isliye humein yaad dilana chahiye ki yahan jiva ke aage nityasiddha ya Nityabaddha nahi likha hai, yaani for all categories of living entities, Nitai’s mercy is mandatory. This point should be clear in your mind. dekhi’ ‘jīva’ bali’ sabe karilena sthira. So it is time for us to now move onto the next verse. keha keha āge giyā mahāprema-bhare nityānanda-prabhu-ājñā vijñāpana kare [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 20] keha keha means out of all the servants, someone came filled with great prema, mahaprema bhare. keha keha means someone. age giya means came forward and mahaprema bhare means great prema, with great love. What did he do? nityānanda-prabhu-ājñā vijñāpana kare. That person that devotee they told Jiva Goswami about Nityananda’s order. So they were themselves stunned upon seeing Jiva Goswami. They could not do anything. They could not react to the divine darshan they had of Srila Jiva Goswami. The only thing which they did, they were saying ‘Jiva! Jiva! Yeh to Jiva…’ but they could not move they become emotionless. They saw such extraordinary beauty and such extraordinary bhakti such extraordinary ecstacy. (Hindi) Unhone itna alaukik saundarya dekha, itna alaukik vyaktitva dekha, itni alaukik bhakti dekhi aur itne alaukik saatvik vikaar dekhe ki wo kuch kar ni paaye. Sirf mukh se bol re hai ‘Jiva! Jiva! Jiva!’. Lekin hil nahi paaye, kuch kar nahi paaye, woh drishye ko dekhkar woh dang reh gaye, woh numb ho gaye. They became numb. Then after sometime they finally decided we have to focus on our sewa. We have to focus on our service. You know sometimes it happens that in ecstacy, we forget our service. At that time what should be given more priority. What should be given more priority? Obviously service! Service is the inseparable function of all living entities. Jaiva dharma is to serve Krishna, is to serve Srimati Radharani, is to serve Nitai-Gaura. That is the dharma of the soul. Dharma means that function which cannot be seperated. Like heat is the dharma of fire. Can you separate heat from fire? Is it possible? Or cold from ice? Have you ever seen hot ice or cold fire? You will never see. That is the dharma. Similarly ecstacy, saatvik vikaar is not the dharma of the soul. The dharma of the soul is to serve. The saatvik vikaar is a product, is an effect of serving Nitai-Gaura Radha-Krishna sincerely, wholeheartedly in a pure manner. If you will serve Nitai-Gaura Radha-Krishna via NitaiVayulekhan or Hare Krishna Mahamantra chanting, you serve Nitai-Gaura RadhaKrishna, then ecstacy you will get naturally. But that ecstacy is not your primary function. Your primary function is to serve. So if that ecstacy deviates you from your primary function, then you have to make a deliberate effort to control your ecstacy and get back to the service. (Hindi) Jeeva ka mukhya dharma hai bhagwan ki sewa karna or dil se, shudhta se jab woh bhagwaan ki sewa karta hai, Nitai-Gaura aur Radha-Krishna ki toh uske shareer mein yeh saatvik vikaar aate hai. Usko romaanch hota hai, uski aankhon me ashru aate hai. Toh yeh uska phal hai, dil se ki gayi sewa ka. Toh agar aapko romanch aa rahe hai, ashru aa rahe hai, aapke shareer mein kampan ho raha hai, aur isse aapki sewa mein baadha aa jati hai, toh apko ek prayaas karna hoga apne saatvik vikaaro ko niyantrit karne ka aur aapko punah apni sewa pe dhyan kendrit karna hoga. Like there is a servant of Lord Krishna, he used to fan Krishna. Krishna used to sit on His throne and he is used to fan Krishna. While looking at Krishna, that personality was more beautiful than millions of cupids. By looking at Madan Mohana he used to get ecstasy partly from the service and partly from the darshana of Krishna. He used to get ecstatic and then his hands, they started trembling. Sometimes he used to get stunned and sometimes tears, they were flowing with such a force that he was not able to even see Krishna. That is why he was fanning somewhere else, he was not fanning Krishna anymore. He was fanning just the air. Nobody was there. He realised that because of this ecstacy my service is getting hampered. It is getting obstructed. This is not right. This is not good. I should get back to service. So deliberate effort from his side to control his ecstacy. ‘No no no, I will not even look at even Krishna but I will fan Krishna. If I will look with so much love, then I will again get such ecstacy, then I will not be able to fan Krishna. So I will not look at Krishna. I’ll just fan Him. Or I will keep on blinking my eyes. (Hindi) Taaki baakey bihaari se jyada der tak nain se nain na mil jaaye. Nain ke nain se jab milan hota hai toh shareer me romanch na ho jaaye. Or romanch hone se meri sewa na ruk jaaye. Bhagwan ke sevak ne aisa, sashatkaar unke hridye mein hua ki meri ashruon ki dhaara se, main Bhagwan ko nahi, balki kissi aur ko, hawa ko pankha kar raha hun. Kyunki woh ashruon mujhe Bhagwan ko dekhne nahi de rahe. Itni tivrata se beh rahe hai ki mujhe dikhayi nahi de rahe Bhagwan toh main kahin aur hi pankha kar raha hun. Ya mere shareer ke kampane se ya mere shareer ke numb ho jaane se, mera pankha ruk jaa rha hai. Main Bhagwan ko pankha nahi kar paa raha. Toh us bhakta ne aisa mehsoos kiya apne hridye mein. Usne kaha nahi mujhe ye anand ko rokna hoga chahe mujhe Krishna se nazar kyun na pherni pade, par mujhe apna pankha nirantar ache se karna hoga. Mujhe apni sewa pe dhyaan dena hoga. Chaahe mujhe Bhagwan se nazar hatani padi. Kyunki nazar lagaye rakhunga toh anand badta jaaega fir dobara numb ho jaaunga. Dobara apne sewa se dhyaan kho bethunga. So this is another hidden lesson which we can learn from this line. keha-keha āge giyā mahā- prema-bhare. They were getting ecstacy upon seeing Goswami because Jiva Goswami was so much in ecstacy. And I have this proof, this word mahaprema bhare. mahā-prema-bhare means this is their ecstacy. If you are in mahaprema, if you are in prema then also you will be in ecstacy. If you are in mahaprema then you will not be in ecstasy? You will definitely be in ecstacy but they decided that they have to focus on their sewa. Nitai has ordered us to bring Jiva and we are relishing the mahaprema. (Hindi) Yeh jo shabd likha hai mahaprema, yeh pramana hai ki Nitai ke sab sevako ko bhi ashta saatvik vikaar hone lage Jiva Goswami ko dekhkar aur jis kaaran wo apni sewa ko bhoolne lage ki humein Jiva se Nitai ka milan karaana hai. Jaise hum apne taatparye ke kaaran bhool jaate hai, humara tatparye hi chalta rehta hai. 6 din se chal rha hai lekin Jiva aur Nitai ka milan nahi ho paa raha. Aaj part 6 hai, humein bhi focus karna chahiye apni seva par. Jiva aur Nitai ka jaldi milan karaana chahiye. Toh fir unhone aapas me decide kiya ki bhai nahi acha hai hume mahaprema aa rha hai Jiva ko dekhke lekin humein Nitai ki aagya ko dhyaan mein rakhna hai. Humein Jiva ko jaake Nitai ka sandesh de dena chahiye ab. Bahut der ho gayi hai. Jiva bhi mahaprema mein hai, hum bhi mahaprema mein hai aur sewa bhool gaye Nitai ki. So this is one lesson which we have to keep in mind. I am giving this lesson why? Because when we do NitaiVayulekhan, then you definitely get ecstasy. This lesson is not for ordinary Krishna bhaktas, this lesson is for Nitaivayulekhaks. This lesson is for the practitioners of Nitaivayulekhan. Because ordinary Krishna bhaktas, they rarely get ecstasy but Nitaivayulekhaks they rarely do not get ecstasy. Devotees- Jaya! Haribooolll! (Hindi) Aisa kabhi hi hota hai jab unko ecstacy nahi aati Krishna bhakto ke saath jo Nitai ka aashrey nahi lete, aisa kabhi hi hota hai jab unko ecstacy aati hai. Isliye I am giving this instruction in detail. Even if you get ecstacy via Nitaivayulekhan, like we all were getting ecstatic before the katha while doing Nitaivayulekhan. Three of us were sitting, we were doing NitaiVayulekhan and we were getting ecstacy and we did not want to start the programme only. We wanted to do Nitaivayulekhan only. But we stopped and we focussed on our sewa. From 8-9 we have to do telecast. So we have to stop our ecstacy and we have to concentrate on katha. And the katha will give us ecstacy. The kirtan will give us ecstacy. And it is already giving us ecstacy. Nitai kirtan we are doing in between. This is an important lesson and the lesson which we derived from that verse ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe śrī-jīve ānite [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 18] Last to last day, day before yesterday that Nitai gave this order to His servants so that His servants could develop faith for Jiva Goswami, could develop attachment for Jiva Goswami, could develop love for Jiva Goswami and we derive that lesson that if you will do NitaiVayulekhan regularly and sincerely, then you will realise that your love for devotees has increased. Love for other Nitai Bhaktas has increased. Love for all living entities has increased. That is why it is said you know they had mahaprema for Jiva. ‘Jiva’ means everyone. This word jiva is so special. So if you will take shelter of Nitai then your love for everyone will increase. This is a quote by Srila Nitaipreshthji Gurudev. When you increase your love for Nitai, you can love everyone. But if you will try to love everyone you will disappointingly fail. You will never be able to love everyone, just love Nitai by NitaiVayulekhan and your love for everyone will increase. Especially for devotees which is most required. Your love for devotees is most required. For others compassion is required. For others also you will have love, for non-devotees then you will start associating with them, then you will also become non-devotee. So for others compassion is required. Jiva daya and vaishnava sewa and for serving vaishnavas, prema for vaishnavas is required. And if prema is not there then there are two options. Still serve vaishnavas because by serving vaishnavas only your envy will reduce, then you will get prema for vaishanavas. Or the other option is to do NitaiVayulekhan. (Hindi)Baaki sansaarik jeevon pe, abhakto pe, daya honi chahiye, karuna honi chahiye aur bhakto se prema hona chahiye. Jeeva daya aur vaishanava sewa. Aur vaishnava sewa karne ke lie bhi, vaishnava prema hona chahiye. Aur agar prema nahi hai to bhi vaishnava sewa karni chahiye kyunki vaishnava sewa karne se hi humari vaishanavo ke prati irsha, dwesha khatam hota hai aur humare hridaye mein prema utpana hota hai aur yeh pehla tareeka hai Vaishnavo se prema paida karne ka. Aur dusra tareeka kya hai? NitaiVayulekhan. NitaiVayulekhan is the panacea. Cure for all. Cure for all, for all problems, for everyone. All here means all problems and the second meaning of all is everyone. Cure for all and all means all problems and all people, all living entities, everyone. So you should remember Nitaivayulekhan is cure for all and all has double meaning. So Nitai’s mercy is essential for increasing your love for devotees and love for devotees is essential for increasing your love for Nitai. If you will start loving devotees wholeheartedly then you realise that your love for Nitai is increasing. This does not apply necessarily for all living entities. That if you start loving all living entities then your love for Nitai is increased. But if you start increasing your love for devotees of Nitai, then your love for Nitai will increase and if your love for Nitai is increased by doing Nitaivayulekhan then your love for devotees of Nitai will increase. Devotees-Haribooolll!! Is that clear? What is the proof? Again this proof mahaprema bhare. In the 18 th verse Nitai is ordering his servants. ‘Go and bring Jiva to me’ and I gave that purport that Nitai is ordering like this so that the love of the devotees, the servants of Nitai for Jiva that should increase and the proof here is that the word mahaprema is used. When Nitai ordered the servants they had prema for jiva immediately because they are not pseudo disciples like us. They are not pseudo servants. Immediately they got prema for Jiva when they received the order of Nitai. Because for ideal disciple, hearing is sufficient, seeing is not required. Seeing will only add. Seeing will not form the basis for the result. An ideal disciple will get result simply by hearing from his Guru because of his unshakable faith, strong faith in his Guru’s vani. So immediately they got prema. That is why the word mahaprema is used here. That immediately upon receiving the order of Nitai they got prema for Jiva and after seeing Jiva, the saatvik vikaar, after confirming his identity and seeing such ecstacy, the prema became mahaprema. So getting that prema in their heart was possible simply by getting Nitai’s order. Seeing Jiva Goswami practically was not required. By seeing Jiva Goswami their prema magnified. Their prema was not born at that time. Their prema was born when Nitai ordered them that a special personality is coming to meet Me. Please go and receive him. Immediatley they got prema. That prema was born immediately. We should have so much faith in our Guru’s vaani. We always doubt our Guru’s vaani. That is why we get delayed results in bhakti. That is why we have to wait to actually see because we are not able to get the result when we hear. When the servants saw Jiva, they got increased results. When they heard their master, their Guru Nitai then they got the results. When they saw Jiva, the results increased. But for us, when we hear from our Guru, we don’t get any result and then we have to wait and wait and wait to actually see and the truth is that we will never see if you don’t have faith in your Guru. If you don’t have faith in the vani of your Guru, just keep on waiting for lives after lives. You will see nothing, what to speak of increased results. You will not get any results. (Hindi) Result hi nahi milega result badega to baad mein agar Guru ki vaani mein shraddha hi nahi hai. Nitai ke bhakto ko apni Guru ki vaani mein shraddha thi, apne Prabhu ki vaani me shraddha thi isliye sunne matra se unko prema mil gaya or jab unhone Jiva ko dekha to Prema, Mahprema ban gaya. Unka jo parinaam mil gaya sunne matra se, woh parinaam badh gaya dekhne se. Lekin hum jaise pseudo disciples, nakli shishaye, hum sunne se kabhi vishwaas nahi karte. Hum sochte hai dekhna padega. Or jab hum vishwaas nahi karte, toh humein kabhi dikhta hi nahi. To parinaam badhega kya, parinaam milega hi nahi agar apni Guru ki vaani mein shraddha nahi hogi. Ek bahut mehetvapurna sidhhant me aapke saamne prastut kar raha hoon. This is a very important principle we have to keep in mind. That if you are expecting results in bhakti, if you taking out time for your saadhna every day and if you are sacrificing something for bhakti and you are expecting some results in return, then My dear friends do have faith, unshakable faith in the vaani of your Guru, you will definitely get the results. If you lack that essential faith in the vaani of your Guru, then you will never get any result no matter how much you sacrifice, no matter how much time you are taking out every day, how much years you do this, continue to this, you will never get any result if you don’t have faith in the vaani of your Guru. This is another hidden lesson which we can derive from the first line of 20th shlok and the first line of 18th shlok. The first line of 18th shlok is ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe śrī-jīve ānite keha. This is the first line of 18th shlok and the first line of 20th shlok is keha keha āge giyā mahāprema-bhare. We have derived this principle from these two lines. Mahaprema has given us a hint that earlier they had prema, now they have mahaprema and ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe is our, you know the argument, the chief argument that Nitai has ordered His servants. That is why He increased the love of the devotees of His servants for Jiva in an indirect way. He increased the love. I hope it is not getting too technical for all of you. It is an important sidhhanta so I am discussing in detail. I just hope that you all have understood what I am trying to say. It is already 9 pm, time for us to wind up this live session. We have to congratulate ourselves for moving on to the next verse. I was afraid that today also we will stay on the verse 19. Finally congratulations, we are on the 20th verse. We are on the first line of the 20th verse. The second line is not yet complete. From seond line onwards we will continue tomorrow. I hope it is still audible to those who are listening live. We can start the kirtan now, if you all say. (Kirtana)

Drown in Bliss Everyday

bhakativinoda, kṛṣṇa-bhajane,
anakūla pāya jāhā

prati-dibase, parama-sukhe,
swīkāra koroye tāhā

So Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur in his bhajana śuddha-bhakata-caraṇa-reṇu, he writes this concluding statement. kṛṣṇa-bhajane, anakūla pāya jāhā. Whatever he finds favorable to Krishna bhajan, everyday prati-dibase, parama-sukhe, with the greatest happiness, he accepts all those activities which are favorable to his bhajana, which are favorable to his bhakti. This is very important. For a devotee, the only goal is to enhance his bhajana quantitatively and qualitatively. The sadhna, bhakti, the seva everything should increase in terms of quantity and in terms of quality. Whatever you find favorable, you get smarana by doing Nitainam Lekhan, by doing Nitai Kirtana, hearing and reading, chanting, association, then do all these things with the greatest happiness. This is the only activity in which you should spend all your time.

Always remain engaged, especially when you are not in dhama, then you cannot waste a single moment, because you are unprotected. If you give up your body outside dhama and you are not even doing bhajana, smarana, if your consciousness is not fixed in the Lord, then you are in a very risky position. So outside dhama you should be more cautious that you do not waste a single moment. You should be very afraid of death. Any moment it may come and then you will waste this precious human life. In the dhama one is more secure, and in dhama bhajana becomes very easy also. But when you are outside dhama, you must be alert, very conscious. prati-dibase, not even a single day you should compromise with your bhajan, your sadhana, your remembrance, your seva, no compromise, there is no room for that because you are in a very very risky position.

So with great delight, with great happiness, parama-sukhe, you must engage yourself in Krishna bhajana and in everything that leads to quantitative and qualitative enhancement of your bhajana. Accept everything that is favorable and reject everything that is unfavourable, then everyday your bliss will increase in bhajana, you will get more and more steadiness and strength to say no to the temptations of maya because you will be drowning in the bliss. You will be actually getting the higher taste which will allow you to give up the lower taste.

And your nishtha for bhakti, your nishtha for the higher taste will reflect in your words, will be reflected in your acharana, your behavior, and others around you will also be inspired to perform bhakti because they’ll feel that you are getting some higher taste, then they will also start hankering for it. Start aspiring for it. They will also start chanting the Hare Krishna Mahamantra, doing Nitainam Lekhan and kirtana, because they will see you directly in so much bliss, pratyaksha, that they will also get inspired.

Joy Nitai!

Gaur Feels Incomplete Without Nitai

suvibhranam bhratuh kara sarasijam komalataram
mitho vaktralokocchalita paramananda hridayam
(Sri Nityanandashtakam by Srila Vrindavana Das Thakur)

Nitai Gaura Haribol!
Nitai Gaura Haribol!

Gauranga Mahaprabhu is poorna (complete). He is complete in Himself but still He feels apoorna (incomplete) when Nitai is not there with Him. He feels incomplete, the most complete Lord in the entire creation, He also feels incomplete without Nitai. And when He is with Nitai, His joy, His bliss knows no bounds, no limits. He is limitlessly blissful because He is with Nitai!! Poorna Lord ‘really’ becomes poorna when He holds the hand of His brother, when He looks affectionately into the eyes of His brother. He feels ‘really complete’ at that time whether it is in the form of Ananta-shesha, Shesha Nag, in different forms of Vishnu or it is Laxmana or it is Balrama or Nitai, the poorna Lord, He always relishes the company of His brother.

suvibhranam bhratuh kara sarasijam komalataram
mitho vaktralokocchalita paramananda hridayam

Gauranga Mahaprabhu when He was in Puri, it is mentioned in the first chapter of Prema Vilasa that He used to miss Nitai so much, He sent Nitai for the deliverance of all fallen souls, He sent Nitai on a mission, but here He used to chant Nitai’s name. It is mentioned Mahaprabhu would chant Nitai’s name and He would not get conscious before nine hours. He would get unconscious for almost nine hours after chanting Nitai’s name, He used to miss Nitai so much. He would chant Nitai’s name with tears in His eyes and then He would faint. He was feeling incomplete without Nitai, then how can we feel complete or satisfied without attaining the Lotus Feet of Nitai? The Lord is also craving for that! If the Supreme Lord, the poorna, the complete Lord is also incomplete, is also craving for Nitai’s association, then how can we ever become satisfied or content without attaining Nitai’s Lotus Feet? This is a small realisation I had during Nitainam Lekhan today evening.

(10th November, 2016)

Joy Nitai!

The Lord of Mercy- Doyal Nitai!

karama geyana, kichu nahi mora,
sadhana bhajana nai
tumi krpa-moya, ami to kangala,
ahaituki krpa cai
(Bhajana Lalsa by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur)

What is Bhaktivinoda Thakur saying? He is saying that just accept that you can’t do sadhana, you can’t do bhajana, you don’t have karma, you don’t have jnana, you don’t have any qualification or yogyata to attain Gauranga and Radha-Shyama. You can only consider yourself as a kangaal and as a beggar and you can start begging for ahaituki kripa means causeless mercy because there is no cause to give you mercy. Even though he himself was performing a lot of sadhana but even if you perform sadhana, you should always consider your sadhana as zero. On the strength of sadhana, you can never attain the Lord. Sadhana is to keep you disciplined. Sadhana is to teach you, you know how to engage your senses in the service of the Lord. But attainment of the Lord is impossible without mercy. And who is the Lord of mercy? Doyal Nitai! So-

heno nitai bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai
dridha kori’ dharo nitair pay
(Nitai Pada Kamla by Srila Narottama Das Thakur)

nitaiyer charana satya, tahara sevaka nitya,
nitai-pada sada koro asa

And drdha kori dharo nitaira paya and then he is saying dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. And in the first line he is saying nitai-pada-kamala. This entire bhajana is you know full of Nitai’s charana. Everywhere he is first of all saying that Nitai’s Lotus feet are more cooling than millions of moons. Then he is saying without Nitai you cannot attain Radha-Krishna, so ‘catch’ Nitai’s Lotus feet. Then he is saying that when Nitai will be merciful on you, then you will automatically attain Vraja dhama, you will see the chinmaya dhama, you will see the real dhama. Your transcendental eyes, senses will awaken and you will see Radha and Krishna. braje radha-krsna pabe. So dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. Then he is saying that nitai-pada sada koro asa. Then in the last line he is saying narottama bodo duhkhi, nitai more koro sukhi; rakho ranga-charanera pasa. The entire bhajana means take shelter of Nitai. The entire bhajana the only crux, the jist of the bhajana is that just take shelter of Nitai. Lotus Feet means you have to take the shelter of entire Nitai. You cannot take the shelter of Lotus feet exclusively. You have to take shelter of Nitai. Narottama Dasa Thakur is saying.

He was the Supreme Personality of Godhead and He had no shame, no hesitation, no ego when he went from door to door and he was begging. The Supreme Personality of Godhead, Sakshat Balrama Sarva Shaktidhara, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, He was not having any ego in begging and we fallen souls, we vibhinamsha, tathastha shakti, badha jiva, badha souls, we have ego that too in front of the Lord. We may have ego in front of some ordinary person. But why are we having ego in front of the Supreme Personality of Godhead who had no ego in begging from us? He was begging from us and we can’t beg from Him? That is very shameful. So we should not request, we should beg Nitai.

Vayulekhan and Nitai bhaktas are The Keys to Highest Mercy

  • When the least mercy is expected, Nitai surprises you by giving the highest.
  • Our consciousness just before we fall asleep, to a large extent, determines the consciousness that we are going to have just after we wake up in the morning. So Nitai Vayulekhan done just before sleeping actually prepares you to do it immediately after getting up in the morning.
  • Nitai Vayulekhan just before sleeping tremendously increases our chances of having Hari-Guru-Vaishnav filled dreams while we are asleep.
  •  Completing one’s Sadhana at any cost before sleeping is a very important teaching of Vaishnav-sarvabhauma Shrila Jagannath das Babaji. We gain so much spiritual strength if we simply follow this one instruction very carefully.
  • The whole world may go upside down but as long as we are in the association of Nitaibhakts, we don’t care!
  • The Lord may take anything away from us but may He allow us to remain in the association of simple and humble Nitaibhakts till our last breath.
  • Even if we hurt a devotee unintentionally we must beg for forgiveness and repent, then what to speak of intentionally hurting a devotee!
  • Nitai transforms sudurlabham into susulabham..
  •  Real NIRJAN Bhajan means that Bhajan which is performed without the desire for “JAN” (name-fame and amassing followers… Na dhanam NA JANAM..)