A Humble Confession to Doyal Nitai

:pray: O Nitai! Who am I to cause the slightest pain, discomfort, or sadness to your beloved devotees? Is there any greater misuse of my free will than this? What a fool I am!

:pray: He Nitai! No matter how much I try to serve you or please you, everything is useless unless I learn to please your devotees and serve them wholeheartedly with utmost respect.

:pray: He Nitai! I think I aspire to attain your love. But if I were really serious then I would not maintain so much envy and hatred towards your devotees.

:pray: A Vaishnav is not supposed to give pain to any living entity. But I’m such a wretch that I dare to cause pain and inconvenience to the rarest and holiest Nitaibhakts.

:pray: My casual behavior towards your devotees shows how low is my regard and devotion for you Nitai.

:hibiscus: Narrotam das Thakhur says “Nitai pada sada karo ash”.. That is, 24*7 hanker for the attainment and service of Nitai’s lotus feet. I wish I could hanker like this for a single moment at least. But I have no time. I’m 24*7 engrossed in hankering for material pleasures and making unlimited plans for sense gratification and self-aggrandizement.

Ekachakra is Ekachakra!

Mahaprabhu told Nitai that He will come again as His son and asked Him to get married. This not only shows that He wanted to fully relish Nitai’s unparalleled Vatsalya but also the fact that He wanted to become the disciple and son of Anang Manjari (Vasudha and Jahnava) to relish complete subordination to Manjari bhav as well. Krishna always wants to serve the lotus feet of the Manjaris. By becoming a disciple of Jahnava Mata, in the form of Virachandra Prabhu, Gaur fulfilled this desire as well.

O mind! When will you stop running from one material desire to another material desire? When will you start rolling in the dust of Ekachakra Dham instead? Please stop running and start rolling!

Ekachakra is bliss. Ekachakra is mercy. Ekachakra is hope. Ekachakra is peace. Ekachakra is light. Ekachakra is love. Ekachakra is rasa. Ekachakra is affection. Ekachakra is protection. Ekachakra is solace. Ekachakra is Ekachakra! (You can compare Ekachakra only with Ekachakra)

What to speak of eternally conditioned souls, even Pandavas got residence in Radhakund in the form of Trees by first residing in Ekachakra and receiving Nitai’s mercy. This is another confidential proof of the fact that everyone gets Kund-vas by Nitai’s mercy only. Even Uddhav could not attain what Pandavas attained simply by the mercy of Nitai & His most merciful abode Ekachakra.

Nitai is an Ocean of Mercy

Joy Nitai!

Nitai is very merciful. We say this all the time. We hear this all the time. We have read it so many times that Nitai is very merciful, Nitai is so merciful. But now we say it very casually that Nitai is very merciful but can we really fathom the depth of His mercy? He is an ocean of mercy and when we try to ponder upon His merciful nature, we have no other option but to surrender. His mercy is so overwhelming. When we start feeling His mercy, I mean even a small small fraction of it, He is an ocean of mercy. You can never fathom, you can just say He is very merciful, but you cannot exactly define the word ‘very’ here. The word ‘very’ is very limited. It describes Nitai’s mercy in a very limited way.

So we can just keep on thinking and contemplating within your mind and heart about the mercy of Nitai. The depth because He is an Ocean of Mercy. karuna sindhu. And the more you take shelter of His name, the more you chant His name, you sing His name aloud in kirtana, you do Nitai Namlekhan, the more you realise how deep the ocean of mercy He is. How deep it is. You can actually enter the ocean, go deeper and deeper and you’ll be more surprised at every moment. You will realise His merciful nature with much more clarity.

In the beginning its just an abstract concept for you. It is very vague that yes yes, He is very merciful. The more you take shelter of His name, the more you realise His true.. the true nature of Nitai comes out from the name and you start getting overwhelmed. You get surprised and tears also start falling from your eyes because it is very natural because such kind of mercy is completely inconceivable. It is incomprehensible. Nobody can understand it. Nobody can conceive it. Nobody can even think of it, the kind of mercy Nitai possesses, bestows upon the fallen souls. The more you realise it, the more you will be overwhelmed and the more you will be attracted to Nitai, the more you will surrender to Nitai. You will take His shelter.

nitai-pada sada koro asa
narottama boro dukhi,
nitai more koro sukhi
rakho ranga-caranera pasa

So just like we say Krishna is rasaraj, He is an ocean of Rasa. We say it very casually but the more a devotee realises that, the more one falls in love with Krishna. The more he realises the rasa, the madhurya of Krishna. Similarly we say Nitai is karuna sindhu, He is an ocean of mercy but just saying is not enough, when you start realising that how merciful He actually is then that mercy attracts you so much that you fully surrender to Nitai. You realise that no one is going to actually deliver you other than Nitai. There is no other gati for you other than Nitai.

nitai charana vina nāhiko ashraya

There is no other shelter. So that is why just philosophy is not enough, practice is very important. When you actually take shelter of His name through Nitai Namlekhan, you practice it. Sadhana is also very important. You do Nitai kirtana, you practice then the philosophy becomes alive. Simply by understanding philosophy, by reading articles and posts or just knowing that Nitai is very merciful is… you know, that is also good but that is not enough. We have to practically realise that and for that you need to practice, you have to do sadhana. And you have to please the Nitai Bhaktas.

So philosophy alone won’t help you so much. You have to accompany it with practice also. Very important. And then you will see that philosophy helps practice and practice helps you to understand philosophy in a better way. They both are complementing each other. Philosophy improves practice and practice improves our philosophical understanding.

Joy Nitai!

What brings Krishna in your heart ?

In the realm of devotional service (Bhakti) if you try to become too practical then you’ll never become ideal. However, if you try to become ideal then the Lord makes everything practical.  So go beyond what is practical and embrace what is ideal fearlessly. People may misunderstand idealism but the Lord understands it very well and even appreciates it.

The most striking quality of Krishna is that He is bhakta-vatsal. And the most striking quality of Nitai is that He is abhakta-vatsal too.  Krishna has a lot of Vatsalya for his surrendered devotees. But Nitai has immense Vatsalya for all living entities. Uttam adham kichu na kare vichar.

Harinam Japa is a thread to bind Krishna. Harinam Kirtan is a rope to bind Krishna. But where is Krishna? First He needs to come in your heart then only you can bind Him with your thread or rope. What brings Krishna in your heart in the first place? Nitai’s name. (Avashya paibe Krishnachandra sei jane) Therefore, Nitainam Lekhan ki Jaya!

 

Pearls of the ocean can’t be obtained simply by standing on the shore. One has to muster courage and dive deep. No pain no gain! Hare Krishna!
If you can’t make this extremely difficult move but still aspire for pearls then simply put your faith in Nitai and He will get the pearls for you. No pain still gain. Joy Nitai!

(Self-advice) Either with closed or open eyes, just try to see the most merciful syllables of निताइ‘s name and nothing else. Don’t engage your eyes in seeing any other beautiful object, person, or scene. Otherwise you won’t be able to see the syllables of Nitai Nam clearly. It is up to you now. What do you really want to see?

 

Jiva Goswami meets Nitai

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Jiva Goswami meets Nitai (Part 6)

By HG Nitaimani Das Prabhuji

September 23, 2016

Joy Joy Nitai! Joy Nitai Vayulekhan! Joy Srila Nitaipreshthji! Joy Srila Gurudev! Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare I hope it’s audible who all are listening to it live online. Is the sound quality fine? Joy Nitai!! (Kirtana) Srila Nitaichand ki jaya! Srila Navadvipa Dhaam Mahatmaya ki jaya! Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur ki jaya! Srila Jiva Goswami ki jaya! So we were discussing the 19th verse of fourth chapter of Navadvipa Dhaam Mahatmaya yesterday and day before yesterday. Both the days we have discussed this verse. sāttvika-vikāra-pūrṇa jīvera śarīra dekhi’ jīva bali’ sabe karilena sthira [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 19] So we were discussing how Srila Jiva Goswami ‘s entire transcedental body is filled with ashta saatvik vikaar and the servants of Nityananda Prabhu, they were ordered by Nitai to bring Srila Jiva Goswami to Nitai. So the servants when they saw this divine personality is filled with astha saatvika vikaar, so those servants they immediately recognised that this must be Jiva. No one can manifest such ecstatic transformations other than that person who is described by Nitai’s special mercy. Nitai, He gave that description to the servants, that description is not mentioned in this book obviously. From this we can deduce cause when they saw the ashta saatvik vikaar in Jiva Goswami ‘s transcedental body, then immediately they said: dekhi’ ‘jīva’ bali’ sabe karilena sthira. As soon as Srila Jiva Goswami’s transcedental body is filled with ashta saatvik vikaar, immediately they said ‘Jiva’, immediately that word came from their mouth, ‘Jiva’. This is ‘Jiva’. Why did they say ‘Jiva’ immediately upon seeing the ecstatic symptoms? Because Nitai must have given that description that if you find person whose transcedental body is filled with ashta saatvik vikaar, then you must know then he is definitely Srila Jiva Goswami. Devotees- Haribolll!! In this book, (Hindi) is book mein, granth mein ye varnan to nahi diya. Iss granth mein toh atharvein(18th) shlok me yehi likha hai ki Nitai ne apne daasgano ko aagya diya ki Jiva Goswami ko yaha le aao. ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe śrī-jīve ānite aneka vaiṣṇava yāya jīve sambodhite [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 18] So in this granth aisa nahi likha ki Nitai ne Jiva Goswami ka kya varnan dia hai, lekin 19th shlok se hum aisa samajh sakte hai jase Nitai ke paarshado ne, Nitai ke daasgano ne Jiva Goswami ko dekha ek aise vyakti ko dekha jiska poora shareer asthta saatvik vikaar se bhara hua hai, usi samaya unhone apne mukh se ek hi shabda dhwani nikaali. ‘Jiva’! ‘Jiva’! Ye to Jiva hai! Ye to Jiva iska matlab Nitai ne aisa varnan kiya tha ki aisa vyaktitva tumhe dikhai dega jo ashta saatvika vikaaro se bhara hua hoga. dekhi’ jīva bali’ sabe karilena sthira. karilena sthira means now they were fully convinced that this is Jiva, this must be Jiva, let us go near him and let us tell him what Nitai has told us, what Nitai has ordered us. That Nitai has personally sent us to bring you. That you are so special to Nitai. So now the servants of Nitai they are fully convinced that this must be Jiva. He cannot be anyone else. so now they are going near to Jiva Goswami and they are going to tell, convey the order of Nityananda Prabhu and let us see what will be the reaction of Srila Jiva Goswami. And how they told Nitai’s order to Jiva Goswami in the next verse. keha keha āge giyā mahāprema-bhare nityānanda-prabhu-ājñā vijñāpana kare [NDM, Chapter 4, verse 20] (Kirtana) sāttvika-vikāra-pūrṇa ‘śrī-jīvera’ śarīra dekhi’ ‘jīva’ bali’ sabe karilena sthira (NDM, Chapter 4, verse 19) So these ashta saatvik vikaar, this is the identity proof, id card of Srila Jiva Goswami. Like we discussed that day for ordinary vaishnavas, the identity proof, the identity card may be a tilaka or a kanthi mala. Mala, tilak in 12 places on the body and kanthi mala and a shikha, dhoti, kurta. This type of dress marks on the body they allow everyone else to recognise a vaishnava. That is the identity proof. But for pure devotees, for extraordinary vaishnavas, the defining feature is the ashta saatvik vikaar. There may be tilak and kanthi mala and dhoti and kurta and shikha even on the body of the extraordinary vaishnava, but the defining characteristic is ‘ashta saatvik vikaar’. That is the speciality which will not be found in the bodies of the ordinary vaishnavas. So the servants they could confirm the identity. Like we check the id card, if confirmed a green signal is there, if it is not confirmed, it’s a red signal. So they saw that Srila Jiva Goswami’s body was trembling, shedding tears in ecstacy, having goosebumps, his voice was chocking, his body color was changing, he was crying and he was getting unconscious. They saw with their own eyes and then they confirmed the identity of Srila Jiva Goswami. And when they saw this ashta saatvik vikaar, you know this is the rare achievement in human life to attain the ashta saatvik vikaar, so when they saw this ashta saatvik vikaar in the body of Jiva Goswami, externally they were saying this is Jiva but internally they were saying this is Nityasidhha Jiva. Devotees-Haribolll!! Internally they realised ‘No, this is not a baddha jiva, baddha jiva cannot experience such ecstacy, my dear friends!’. With their eyes they were talking to each other. They looked into each other’s eyes and then they were confirming. ‘Oho!!Nityasidhha has come in Navadvipa, a badhha jiva has not come to meet Nitai. See our Lord is so special, our master Nitai is so special. That not only baddha jiva come to meet our Lord, our master but even Nityasiddha Jiva’s hanker so much to attain the darshan, the service of Doyal Nitai. Devotees- Haribooolll!! (Hindi) Nitai ke daasgan, Nitai ke paarshad apne netron se ek dusre se baat cheet kar re hai. Apni drishti se ek dusre ki ankhon me aankhein daalke, ek dusre ko keh rahe hai- ‘Koi bhaddha jiva nahi aaya. Nitai se milne ye ashta saatvik vikaar purna shareer dekhkar aisa maalum padta hai ki ek Nityasidhha jiva aaya hai. Ispe garva hona chahiye ki humare Prabhu Nitai se baddha jiva toh milne aate hi hai par uchh koti ke Mahabhagvat nityasiddha bhi humare Nitai ke charno ki sewa ke nirantar abhilaashi hai, ke liye tadapte hai. Nitai ke charano ke darshana ke liye, badhha jiva hi nahi tadapte balki Nityasiddha jiva bhi tadapte hai. We all are like fish out of water when ‘we’ don’t have the service of Nitai, but here ‘we’ not only includes the badhha jivas but also includes the eternally liberated souls Even the eternally liberated souls, the mahabhagvats, they also feel like fish out of water when they are not able to get the service of Nitai. When they are not able to get the darshan of Nitai. Such is the position of Doyal Nitai. Doyal Nitai! Doyal Nitai! Doyal Nitai! (Kirtana) So I hope it is still audible to all those who are listening live online. Another point I would like to discuss from this 19th verse of saatvik vikaar purna. Dekhi Jiva boli. This word jiva is very striking here. Whenever you hear this word ‘Jiva’ especially for Jiva Goswami, the only philosophical point that should come in your mind is that no matter you are a ordinary jiva or extraordinary jiva, no matter you are a neophyte soul or an advanced soul, you are a soul. And for all souls, Nitai’s mercy and Nitai’s service is mandatory. This word is not specifying Nityasiddha jiva or Nityabaddha jiva. This is just one word jiva. So why am I discussing this point from different angle is that there are some devotees those who think that we are so advanced or we have been in Krishna consciousness for so many years, we don’t need to approach Nitai or Balarama. We don’t need the mercy of Nitai. We will do Radha Krishna bhajan. We will meditate on the pastimes, the eternal pastimes of Radha Krishna. We will read the pastimes of Radha Krishna. We will discuss the high level books which contain the position of Radha Krishna. Radhe-Shyama. RadheShyama. We don’t need Nitai, we don’t need Balarama. That is for the new comers.’ There are some devotees who think like this. asatyere satya kori māni ahańkāre matta hoiyā, nitāi-pada pāsariyā (Nitai Pada Kamala by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) Narottam is saying. Here Jiva is saying, there Narottama is saying. heno nitāi bine bhāi, rādhā-kṛṣṇa pāite nāi nitāiyer koruṇā habe, braje rādhā-kṛṣṇa pābe (Nitai Pada Kamala by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) Automatically you will get Radha-Krishna, simply by receiving the mercy of Nitai. So never think you are too high for Nitai. You are never too high in bhakti for Nitai. Just keep this point in your mind. (Hindi) Aap kabhi bhi itni uchai pe nahi pahuchne wale jaha pe aakar Nitai ki avashyakta hi nahi. Aisi koi uchai nahi jahan apko Nitai nahi chahiye. Chaahe kitne bhi bade bhakta ban jaa, apko har avastha mein, har uchayi mein Nitai chahiye agar aapko is janam me RadhaKrishna ke darshan chahiye. Isliye yaha par word use kia gaya hai ‘jiva’. Isliye humein yaad dilana chahiye ki yahan jiva ke aage nityasiddha ya Nityabaddha nahi likha hai, yaani for all categories of living entities, Nitai’s mercy is mandatory. This point should be clear in your mind. dekhi’ ‘jīva’ bali’ sabe karilena sthira. So it is time for us to now move onto the next verse. keha keha āge giyā mahāprema-bhare nityānanda-prabhu-ājñā vijñāpana kare [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 20] keha keha means out of all the servants, someone came filled with great prema, mahaprema bhare. keha keha means someone. age giya means came forward and mahaprema bhare means great prema, with great love. What did he do? nityānanda-prabhu-ājñā vijñāpana kare. That person that devotee they told Jiva Goswami about Nityananda’s order. So they were themselves stunned upon seeing Jiva Goswami. They could not do anything. They could not react to the divine darshan they had of Srila Jiva Goswami. The only thing which they did, they were saying ‘Jiva! Jiva! Yeh to Jiva…’ but they could not move they become emotionless. They saw such extraordinary beauty and such extraordinary bhakti such extraordinary ecstacy. (Hindi) Unhone itna alaukik saundarya dekha, itna alaukik vyaktitva dekha, itni alaukik bhakti dekhi aur itne alaukik saatvik vikaar dekhe ki wo kuch kar ni paaye. Sirf mukh se bol re hai ‘Jiva! Jiva! Jiva!’. Lekin hil nahi paaye, kuch kar nahi paaye, woh drishye ko dekhkar woh dang reh gaye, woh numb ho gaye. They became numb. Then after sometime they finally decided we have to focus on our sewa. We have to focus on our service. You know sometimes it happens that in ecstacy, we forget our service. At that time what should be given more priority. What should be given more priority? Obviously service! Service is the inseparable function of all living entities. Jaiva dharma is to serve Krishna, is to serve Srimati Radharani, is to serve Nitai-Gaura. That is the dharma of the soul. Dharma means that function which cannot be seperated. Like heat is the dharma of fire. Can you separate heat from fire? Is it possible? Or cold from ice? Have you ever seen hot ice or cold fire? You will never see. That is the dharma. Similarly ecstacy, saatvik vikaar is not the dharma of the soul. The dharma of the soul is to serve. The saatvik vikaar is a product, is an effect of serving Nitai-Gaura Radha-Krishna sincerely, wholeheartedly in a pure manner. If you will serve Nitai-Gaura Radha-Krishna via NitaiVayulekhan or Hare Krishna Mahamantra chanting, you serve Nitai-Gaura RadhaKrishna, then ecstacy you will get naturally. But that ecstacy is not your primary function. Your primary function is to serve. So if that ecstacy deviates you from your primary function, then you have to make a deliberate effort to control your ecstacy and get back to the service. (Hindi) Jeeva ka mukhya dharma hai bhagwan ki sewa karna or dil se, shudhta se jab woh bhagwaan ki sewa karta hai, Nitai-Gaura aur Radha-Krishna ki toh uske shareer mein yeh saatvik vikaar aate hai. Usko romaanch hota hai, uski aankhon me ashru aate hai. Toh yeh uska phal hai, dil se ki gayi sewa ka. Toh agar aapko romanch aa rahe hai, ashru aa rahe hai, aapke shareer mein kampan ho raha hai, aur isse aapki sewa mein baadha aa jati hai, toh apko ek prayaas karna hoga apne saatvik vikaaro ko niyantrit karne ka aur aapko punah apni sewa pe dhyan kendrit karna hoga. Like there is a servant of Lord Krishna, he used to fan Krishna. Krishna used to sit on His throne and he is used to fan Krishna. While looking at Krishna, that personality was more beautiful than millions of cupids. By looking at Madan Mohana he used to get ecstasy partly from the service and partly from the darshana of Krishna. He used to get ecstatic and then his hands, they started trembling. Sometimes he used to get stunned and sometimes tears, they were flowing with such a force that he was not able to even see Krishna. That is why he was fanning somewhere else, he was not fanning Krishna anymore. He was fanning just the air. Nobody was there. He realised that because of this ecstacy my service is getting hampered. It is getting obstructed. This is not right. This is not good. I should get back to service. So deliberate effort from his side to control his ecstacy. ‘No no no, I will not even look at even Krishna but I will fan Krishna. If I will look with so much love, then I will again get such ecstacy, then I will not be able to fan Krishna. So I will not look at Krishna. I’ll just fan Him. Or I will keep on blinking my eyes. (Hindi) Taaki baakey bihaari se jyada der tak nain se nain na mil jaaye. Nain ke nain se jab milan hota hai toh shareer me romanch na ho jaaye. Or romanch hone se meri sewa na ruk jaaye. Bhagwan ke sevak ne aisa, sashatkaar unke hridye mein hua ki meri ashruon ki dhaara se, main Bhagwan ko nahi, balki kissi aur ko, hawa ko pankha kar raha hun. Kyunki woh ashruon mujhe Bhagwan ko dekhne nahi de rahe. Itni tivrata se beh rahe hai ki mujhe dikhayi nahi de rahe Bhagwan toh main kahin aur hi pankha kar raha hun. Ya mere shareer ke kampane se ya mere shareer ke numb ho jaane se, mera pankha ruk jaa rha hai. Main Bhagwan ko pankha nahi kar paa raha. Toh us bhakta ne aisa mehsoos kiya apne hridye mein. Usne kaha nahi mujhe ye anand ko rokna hoga chahe mujhe Krishna se nazar kyun na pherni pade, par mujhe apna pankha nirantar ache se karna hoga. Mujhe apni sewa pe dhyaan dena hoga. Chaahe mujhe Bhagwan se nazar hatani padi. Kyunki nazar lagaye rakhunga toh anand badta jaaega fir dobara numb ho jaaunga. Dobara apne sewa se dhyaan kho bethunga. So this is another hidden lesson which we can learn from this line. keha-keha āge giyā mahā- prema-bhare. They were getting ecstacy upon seeing Goswami because Jiva Goswami was so much in ecstacy. And I have this proof, this word mahaprema bhare. mahā-prema-bhare means this is their ecstacy. If you are in mahaprema, if you are in prema then also you will be in ecstacy. If you are in mahaprema then you will not be in ecstasy? You will definitely be in ecstacy but they decided that they have to focus on their sewa. Nitai has ordered us to bring Jiva and we are relishing the mahaprema. (Hindi) Yeh jo shabd likha hai mahaprema, yeh pramana hai ki Nitai ke sab sevako ko bhi ashta saatvik vikaar hone lage Jiva Goswami ko dekhkar aur jis kaaran wo apni sewa ko bhoolne lage ki humein Jiva se Nitai ka milan karaana hai. Jaise hum apne taatparye ke kaaran bhool jaate hai, humara tatparye hi chalta rehta hai. 6 din se chal rha hai lekin Jiva aur Nitai ka milan nahi ho paa raha. Aaj part 6 hai, humein bhi focus karna chahiye apni seva par. Jiva aur Nitai ka jaldi milan karaana chahiye. Toh fir unhone aapas me decide kiya ki bhai nahi acha hai hume mahaprema aa rha hai Jiva ko dekhke lekin humein Nitai ki aagya ko dhyaan mein rakhna hai. Humein Jiva ko jaake Nitai ka sandesh de dena chahiye ab. Bahut der ho gayi hai. Jiva bhi mahaprema mein hai, hum bhi mahaprema mein hai aur sewa bhool gaye Nitai ki. So this is one lesson which we have to keep in mind. I am giving this lesson why? Because when we do NitaiVayulekhan, then you definitely get ecstasy. This lesson is not for ordinary Krishna bhaktas, this lesson is for Nitaivayulekhaks. This lesson is for the practitioners of Nitaivayulekhan. Because ordinary Krishna bhaktas, they rarely get ecstasy but Nitaivayulekhaks they rarely do not get ecstasy. Devotees- Jaya! Haribooolll! (Hindi) Aisa kabhi hi hota hai jab unko ecstacy nahi aati Krishna bhakto ke saath jo Nitai ka aashrey nahi lete, aisa kabhi hi hota hai jab unko ecstacy aati hai. Isliye I am giving this instruction in detail. Even if you get ecstacy via Nitaivayulekhan, like we all were getting ecstatic before the katha while doing Nitaivayulekhan. Three of us were sitting, we were doing NitaiVayulekhan and we were getting ecstacy and we did not want to start the programme only. We wanted to do Nitaivayulekhan only. But we stopped and we focussed on our sewa. From 8-9 we have to do telecast. So we have to stop our ecstacy and we have to concentrate on katha. And the katha will give us ecstacy. The kirtan will give us ecstacy. And it is already giving us ecstacy. Nitai kirtan we are doing in between. This is an important lesson and the lesson which we derived from that verse ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe śrī-jīve ānite [NDM, Chapter 4, Verse 18] Last to last day, day before yesterday that Nitai gave this order to His servants so that His servants could develop faith for Jiva Goswami, could develop attachment for Jiva Goswami, could develop love for Jiva Goswami and we derive that lesson that if you will do NitaiVayulekhan regularly and sincerely, then you will realise that your love for devotees has increased. Love for other Nitai Bhaktas has increased. Love for all living entities has increased. That is why it is said you know they had mahaprema for Jiva. ‘Jiva’ means everyone. This word jiva is so special. So if you will take shelter of Nitai then your love for everyone will increase. This is a quote by Srila Nitaipreshthji Gurudev. When you increase your love for Nitai, you can love everyone. But if you will try to love everyone you will disappointingly fail. You will never be able to love everyone, just love Nitai by NitaiVayulekhan and your love for everyone will increase. Especially for devotees which is most required. Your love for devotees is most required. For others compassion is required. For others also you will have love, for non-devotees then you will start associating with them, then you will also become non-devotee. So for others compassion is required. Jiva daya and vaishnava sewa and for serving vaishnavas, prema for vaishnavas is required. And if prema is not there then there are two options. Still serve vaishnavas because by serving vaishnavas only your envy will reduce, then you will get prema for vaishanavas. Or the other option is to do NitaiVayulekhan. (Hindi)Baaki sansaarik jeevon pe, abhakto pe, daya honi chahiye, karuna honi chahiye aur bhakto se prema hona chahiye. Jeeva daya aur vaishanava sewa. Aur vaishnava sewa karne ke lie bhi, vaishnava prema hona chahiye. Aur agar prema nahi hai to bhi vaishnava sewa karni chahiye kyunki vaishnava sewa karne se hi humari vaishanavo ke prati irsha, dwesha khatam hota hai aur humare hridaye mein prema utpana hota hai aur yeh pehla tareeka hai Vaishnavo se prema paida karne ka. Aur dusra tareeka kya hai? NitaiVayulekhan. NitaiVayulekhan is the panacea. Cure for all. Cure for all, for all problems, for everyone. All here means all problems and the second meaning of all is everyone. Cure for all and all means all problems and all people, all living entities, everyone. So you should remember Nitaivayulekhan is cure for all and all has double meaning. So Nitai’s mercy is essential for increasing your love for devotees and love for devotees is essential for increasing your love for Nitai. If you will start loving devotees wholeheartedly then you realise that your love for Nitai is increasing. This does not apply necessarily for all living entities. That if you start loving all living entities then your love for Nitai is increased. But if you start increasing your love for devotees of Nitai, then your love for Nitai will increase and if your love for Nitai is increased by doing Nitaivayulekhan then your love for devotees of Nitai will increase. Devotees-Haribooolll!! Is that clear? What is the proof? Again this proof mahaprema bhare. In the 18 th verse Nitai is ordering his servants. ‘Go and bring Jiva to me’ and I gave that purport that Nitai is ordering like this so that the love of the devotees, the servants of Nitai for Jiva that should increase and the proof here is that the word mahaprema is used. When Nitai ordered the servants they had prema for jiva immediately because they are not pseudo disciples like us. They are not pseudo servants. Immediately they got prema for Jiva when they received the order of Nitai. Because for ideal disciple, hearing is sufficient, seeing is not required. Seeing will only add. Seeing will not form the basis for the result. An ideal disciple will get result simply by hearing from his Guru because of his unshakable faith, strong faith in his Guru’s vani. So immediately they got prema. That is why the word mahaprema is used here. That immediately upon receiving the order of Nitai they got prema for Jiva and after seeing Jiva, the saatvik vikaar, after confirming his identity and seeing such ecstacy, the prema became mahaprema. So getting that prema in their heart was possible simply by getting Nitai’s order. Seeing Jiva Goswami practically was not required. By seeing Jiva Goswami their prema magnified. Their prema was not born at that time. Their prema was born when Nitai ordered them that a special personality is coming to meet Me. Please go and receive him. Immediatley they got prema. That prema was born immediately. We should have so much faith in our Guru’s vaani. We always doubt our Guru’s vaani. That is why we get delayed results in bhakti. That is why we have to wait to actually see because we are not able to get the result when we hear. When the servants saw Jiva, they got increased results. When they heard their master, their Guru Nitai then they got the results. When they saw Jiva, the results increased. But for us, when we hear from our Guru, we don’t get any result and then we have to wait and wait and wait to actually see and the truth is that we will never see if you don’t have faith in your Guru. If you don’t have faith in the vani of your Guru, just keep on waiting for lives after lives. You will see nothing, what to speak of increased results. You will not get any results. (Hindi) Result hi nahi milega result badega to baad mein agar Guru ki vaani mein shraddha hi nahi hai. Nitai ke bhakto ko apni Guru ki vaani mein shraddha thi, apne Prabhu ki vaani me shraddha thi isliye sunne matra se unko prema mil gaya or jab unhone Jiva ko dekha to Prema, Mahprema ban gaya. Unka jo parinaam mil gaya sunne matra se, woh parinaam badh gaya dekhne se. Lekin hum jaise pseudo disciples, nakli shishaye, hum sunne se kabhi vishwaas nahi karte. Hum sochte hai dekhna padega. Or jab hum vishwaas nahi karte, toh humein kabhi dikhta hi nahi. To parinaam badhega kya, parinaam milega hi nahi agar apni Guru ki vaani mein shraddha nahi hogi. Ek bahut mehetvapurna sidhhant me aapke saamne prastut kar raha hoon. This is a very important principle we have to keep in mind. That if you are expecting results in bhakti, if you taking out time for your saadhna every day and if you are sacrificing something for bhakti and you are expecting some results in return, then My dear friends do have faith, unshakable faith in the vaani of your Guru, you will definitely get the results. If you lack that essential faith in the vaani of your Guru, then you will never get any result no matter how much you sacrifice, no matter how much time you are taking out every day, how much years you do this, continue to this, you will never get any result if you don’t have faith in the vaani of your Guru. This is another hidden lesson which we can derive from the first line of 20th shlok and the first line of 18th shlok. The first line of 18th shlok is ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe śrī-jīve ānite keha. This is the first line of 18th shlok and the first line of 20th shlok is keha keha āge giyā mahāprema-bhare. We have derived this principle from these two lines. Mahaprema has given us a hint that earlier they had prema, now they have mahaprema and ājñā dila dāsa-gaṇe is our, you know the argument, the chief argument that Nitai has ordered His servants. That is why He increased the love of the devotees of His servants for Jiva in an indirect way. He increased the love. I hope it is not getting too technical for all of you. It is an important sidhhanta so I am discussing in detail. I just hope that you all have understood what I am trying to say. It is already 9 pm, time for us to wind up this live session. We have to congratulate ourselves for moving on to the next verse. I was afraid that today also we will stay on the verse 19. Finally congratulations, we are on the 20th verse. We are on the first line of the 20th verse. The second line is not yet complete. From seond line onwards we will continue tomorrow. I hope it is still audible to those who are listening live. We can start the kirtan now, if you all say. (Kirtana)

The Lord of Mercy- Doyal Nitai!

karama geyana, kichu nahi mora,
sadhana bhajana nai
tumi krpa-moya, ami to kangala,
ahaituki krpa cai
(Bhajana Lalsa by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur)

What is Bhaktivinoda Thakur saying? He is saying that just accept that you can’t do sadhana, you can’t do bhajana, you don’t have karma, you don’t have jnana, you don’t have any qualification or yogyata to attain Gauranga and Radha-Shyama. You can only consider yourself as a kangaal and as a beggar and you can start begging for ahaituki kripa means causeless mercy because there is no cause to give you mercy. Even though he himself was performing a lot of sadhana but even if you perform sadhana, you should always consider your sadhana as zero. On the strength of sadhana, you can never attain the Lord. Sadhana is to keep you disciplined. Sadhana is to teach you, you know how to engage your senses in the service of the Lord. But attainment of the Lord is impossible without mercy. And who is the Lord of mercy? Doyal Nitai! So-

heno nitai bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai
dridha kori’ dharo nitair pay
(Nitai Pada Kamla by Srila Narottama Das Thakur)

nitaiyer charana satya, tahara sevaka nitya,
nitai-pada sada koro asa

And drdha kori dharo nitaira paya and then he is saying dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. And in the first line he is saying nitai-pada-kamala. This entire bhajana is you know full of Nitai’s charana. Everywhere he is first of all saying that Nitai’s Lotus feet are more cooling than millions of moons. Then he is saying without Nitai you cannot attain Radha-Krishna, so ‘catch’ Nitai’s Lotus feet. Then he is saying that when Nitai will be merciful on you, then you will automatically attain Vraja dhama, you will see the chinmaya dhama, you will see the real dhama. Your transcendental eyes, senses will awaken and you will see Radha and Krishna. braje radha-krsna pabe. So dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. Then he is saying that nitai-pada sada koro asa. Then in the last line he is saying narottama bodo duhkhi, nitai more koro sukhi; rakho ranga-charanera pasa. The entire bhajana means take shelter of Nitai. The entire bhajana the only crux, the jist of the bhajana is that just take shelter of Nitai. Lotus Feet means you have to take the shelter of entire Nitai. You cannot take the shelter of Lotus feet exclusively. You have to take shelter of Nitai. Narottama Dasa Thakur is saying.

He was the Supreme Personality of Godhead and He had no shame, no hesitation, no ego when he went from door to door and he was begging. The Supreme Personality of Godhead, Sakshat Balrama Sarva Shaktidhara, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, He was not having any ego in begging and we fallen souls, we vibhinamsha, tathastha shakti, badha jiva, badha souls, we have ego that too in front of the Lord. We may have ego in front of some ordinary person. But why are we having ego in front of the Supreme Personality of Godhead who had no ego in begging from us? He was begging from us and we can’t beg from Him? That is very shameful. So we should not request, we should beg Nitai.

Nitai is Yours

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NITAI IS YOURS

By HG Nitaimani Das Prabhuji

October 20,2016

Is by Krishna and is for Krishna. All other religious traditions and organizations, spiritual sects they agree to this point only that this entire creation is ‘of God’ and ‘by God’. But the Vaishnavasim, the core Vaishnava philosophy is laying emphasis. Mukund Vasudev and Chotha Haridas and so many associates of Mahaprabhu were there, but Mahaprabhu gave the responsibility of delivering the fallen souls only to Nitai. And He said Nitai – ‘You take your sakha, You take Your associates and You deliver and You give the highest love to all fallen souls.’ So the first meaning of Nitai is ‘I am Yours’. This is Nitai’s philosophy. You don’t have to say ‘I am Yours’, Nitai will say ‘I am Yours’. And the second meaning is ‘Take Me’. That is why Srila Locana Das Thakur, he writes in that bhajana,

akrodha paramānanda nityānanda rāya abhimāna śūnya nitāi nagare beḍāya adhama patita jīvera dvāre dvāre giyā harināma mahā-mantra dicchena bilāiyā And in the end of this bhajana, Locana Das Thakur is sayinghena avatāre jā’ra rati nā janmila locana bale sei pāpī ela āra gela

That if you don’t get attached to such a Lord like Nitai, then you are the most sinful person. You are papi if you don’t get attached to Nitai, who is not expecting you to do anything, who is ready to do everything for you, who is ready to overlook all your faults, all your mistakes, all your offenses, all your anarthas. He is ready to overlook all and still you only wish to get attached to Radharani and Banke Bihari and Gaursundara, who first want you to get purified, who first want you to get rid of all the offenses, the 10 dhama apradha, the 10 nama apradha, the 64 seva apradha and then the anarthas mentioned in Madhurya Kadambini and other scriptures. There are so many things we need to get rid of to be accepted by Gaura Radha-Krishna as Their own. But there is nothing, absolutely nothing, no qualification, no eligibility criteria laid down by Nitai to accept you as His own. Absolutely nothing! And still you don’t want to get attached to Nitai. There is one nama apradha that if you hear the glories of the Hari nama and you don’t get attached to Hari nama, then that is also an offense. Similarly if you come to know about Nitai (aside: Sri Sri Gaura Nitai ki Jaya) you come to know about Nitai, the most merciful Lord of the entire creation in past, present and future and if you don’t get attached then you are the most sinful. hena avatāre jā’ra rati nā janmila locana bale sei pāpī ela āra gela ela āra gela means he came and he went. His life was waste. That person who did not get attached to Nitai, this crazy Lord Nitai, this unique form of the Godhead, then his entire life is waste and he is the most sinful. No other sins are going to keep you away from Gaura Radha-Krishna, only this sin is going to keep you away from Gaura Radha-Krishna – this sin is not getting attached to Nitai. Jagai and Madhai were performing all sinful acts in Navadvipa dhama, but what Bhaktivinoda Thakur writes in Navadvipa Dhama Mahatmaya? He writes- navadvīpe śata śata aparādha kari’ anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’ (Chapter 1, Glories of Dhama, Verse 57) Even if you perform hundreds of sins in Navadvipa, you will be instantly forgiven and delivered by Doyal Nitai. anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’, navadvīpe śata śata aparādha kari. śata śata means hundreds of offenses. Navadvipe. anāyāse means very easily, very quickly. anāyāse nitāi kṛpāya yāya tari’. tari means you will be delivered. And the proof is Jagai and Madhai. brajendra-nandana jei, śacī-suta hoilo sei, balarāma hoilo nitāi dīna-hīna jata chilo, hari-nāme uddhārilo, tāra śākṣī jagāi mādhāi golokera prema-dhana, hari-nāma-sańkīrtana, rati nā janmilo kene tāy hā hā prabhu nanda-suta, vṛṣabhānu-sutā-juta, koruṇā karoho ei-bāro narottama-dāsa koy, nā ṭheliho rāńgā pāy, tomā bine ke āche āmāra Doyal Nitaaaaii!!!! Doyal Nitaaaaii!!! (Hari Hari Biphale Janama Bhajan by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) So this bhajana is by Narottama Dasa only. narottama-dāsa koy, nā ṭheliho rāńgā pāy. Narottama Dasa is saying – “Please don’t keep me away from Your Lotus Feet. Oh Nitai Gaura Radhe-Shyama! Please keep me close to Your Lotus Feet.” tomā bine ke āche āmāra. “There is no one in my entire life who I can call as my own. Only You I can call as my own.” tomā bine ke āche āmāra. āmāra’ bolite prabhu! āre kichu nāi. (Amar Bolite Prabhu by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur). I cannot call anyone as my own. Everybody is in their own. Nobody is there for anyone in this world. Only Nitai Gaura and Radha-Krishna are yours. The vaishnavas, the devotees of Nitai Gaura RadhaKrishna are yours, the spiritual master, the spiritual masters, the shiksha gurus and the diksha gurus and the vaishnavas, and Nitai Gaura Radhe-Shyama, They are yours. tomā bine ke āche āmāra. So the proof is that Nitai delivered Jagai and Madhai despite all their disqualifications. They were the epitome of sin. They had reached the height of sin. They used to perform murders and robberies and rapes and what not? All kind of sinful activities they would indulge in. But just because they happened to come in contact with Nityananda. Just because of their contact with Nitai, they got an entry in that Srivasa Angana in which a 25 year veteran brahmachari couldn’t enter, who was only drinking milk for 25 years, he was not performing any sin, but that brahmachari did not receive the mercy of Nitai. He was sinless, but he had that ego that I am a brahmachari, I only drink milk. He was not allowed that Srivasa Angana. Many great pandits and scholars and brahamins of Navadvipa were not allowed inside Srivasa Angana, but those two heroes of sins, Jagai and Madhai. Hero or villain? (laughs) Villians! Those two greatest villians of Navadvipa, they were allowed inside Srivasa Angana in one day. One day before they were the greatest sinners and within 24 hours, they were inside Srivasa Angana. That is Nitaaaiiii!! Devotees- Haribooolll!! That is the mercy, the kripa siddhi of Doyal Nitai. Their destination was the Sudarsan Chakra. That was the only gati of Jagai and Madhai. But by Nitai’s interference and Nitai’s, you know, protection Jagai and Madhai, He finally compelled Chaitanya Mahaprabhu to embrace Jagai and Madhai. He wanted to severe the heads. He wanted to use His chakra on Jagai and Madhai. But by Nitai’s merciful interference they were finally in the arms of Gaursundara. In the arms! Can you imagine?

That is why Nitai is known as agatira gati nitāi sādhu loke bole. dayā koro more nitāi, dayā koro more agatira gati nitāi sādhu loke bole (Doya Koro More Nitai by Kanu Ramadasa Thakura) A real Vaishnava, a real Guru, a real preacher, a real sadhu should only emphasize on the importance of Nitai because rest everything Nitai will give. What can we do? We can’t do anything. Bhaktivinoda Thakur is sayingkarama geyana, kichu nahi mora, sadhana bhajana nai tumi krpa-moya, ami to kangala, ahaituki krpa cai (Bhajana Lalsa by Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur) What is Bhaktivinoda Thakur saying? He is saying that just accept that you can’t do sadhana, you can’t do bhajana, you don’t have karma, you don’t have jnana, you don’t have any qualification or yogyata to attain Gauranga and Radha-Shyama. You can only consider yourself as a kangaal and as a beggar and you can start begging for ahaituki kripa means causeless mercy because there is no cause to give you mercy. Even though he himself was performing a lot of sadhana but even if you perform sadhana, you should always consider your sadhana as zero. On the strength of sadhana, you can never attain the Lord. Sadhana is to keep you disciplined. Sadhana is to teach you, you know how to engage your senses in the service of the Lord. But attainment of the Lord is impossible without mercy. And who is the Lord of mercy? Doyal Nitai! Soheno nitai bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai dridha kori’ dharo nitair pay (Nitai Pada Kamla by Srila Narottama Das Thakur) I will not explain the meaning of Nityananda today. I will only discuss Nitai. Nitai is saying ‘I am yours’. There is so much intimacy, there is no gap between the soul and the God. When Nitai comes into the picture, there is no you know, level difference. In fact He takes a lower position than you. And you are the lowest of all. You are the most fallen. But He will accept a lower position than you and then He will approach you. Gauranga Radhe-Shyama will always remain above you but Nitai will accept a lower position than you. He will fall on the ground. dante tṛṇa dhari’ Nitai dante tṛṇa dhari’ (Akrodha Paramananda by Srila Locana Das Thakur).

Which Lord has placed straw between His teeth and fallen at the feet of the fallen souls? No Lord has placed straw in His teeth. Rupa and Sanatana placed straw in their teeth when they approached Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu. But Nitai placed a straw in His teeth when He approaches the most degraded fallen souls of Kaliyuga. Can you imagine? jā’re dekhe tā’re kahe dante tṛṇa dhari’ ‘āmāre kiniyā laha. āmāre kiniyā laha means – ‘Please buy Me. Please purchase Me. I am for sale. Purchase Me. Just worship Gaursundara.’ That is the meaning of Nitai. ‘Take Me. Purchase Me. Buy Me.’ That is the meaning of Nitai. There is so much intimacy between the fallen souls and Nitai that there is no wall or barrier which stops you from getting, you know getting the ashta sattvik vikara from Nitai. You can very easily get the ashta sattvik vikara from Nitai. Every other Lord will first test you. You have to pass the test and then you will be rewarded with the ashta sattvik vikara. First the other Lord will tempt you, give you material enjoyment, when you reject that. bhukti-mukti-spriha yavat pishaci (Srila Rupa Goswami in Bhakti-rasamrita-sindhu 1.2.22). When you consider the desire for sense enjoyment as witches, then only Krishna will say that you are fit to receive the sandrananda-visheshatma shri-krishnakarshini ca sa. klesha-ghni shubhada moksha-laghuta-krit sudurlabha sandrananda-visheshatma shri-krishnakarshini ca sa (Shrila Rupa Gosvami, Bhakti-rasāmṛta-sindhu 1.17) The six symptoms of pure bhakti, you know the six results of pure bhakti. First you have to show Krishna that you want nothing but Krishna, then only Krishna will give you the highest kind of sandrananda-visheshatma. sandrananda, the highest ananda. But Nitai, His name is Nityananda. In His name only ananda is there. He is the only Lord who has the word ananda in his name. Only Lord! Nityaaananda!! Ananda is present in His name. name nityananda tumi, rupe nityananda; ei tumi nityananda rama murttimanta (Chaitanya-bhagavata, Madhya-khanda 12.18) And ananda, bliss is the ultimate goal. Ananda and love. Ultimate goal for all living entities. And ananda is present eternally in Nitai because He is Nityananda. Even Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s ananda gets increased in the association of Nityananda. It is mentioned in Chaitanya Mangala. Mahaprabhu is saccidananda vigraha but when Nitai enters that hall where Mahaprabhu is sitting, then Mahaprabhu ananda increases. So Nitai has the capacity to increase the pleasure, the bliss of the Supreme Personality of Godhead. So can’t He increase your bliss? Instant bliss comes when we chant Nityananda, when you write Nitai’s name, when you sing Nitai’s name somehow or the other. That is Narottama Dasa Thakur says nitai na bolilo mukhe, majilo samsara-sukhe (Nitai Pada Kamala). He is saying that you are not tasting the real nectar and you are, you know running after material happiness. What happiness can materialistic sense objects give you, which Nitai’s name can’t give you? So why are you not chanting Nitai’s name? nitai na bolilo mukhe, why are you not moving your tongue to chant Nitai and why are you running after the samsara sukha which is in brackets dukha? Sukha and within brackets dukha. (Laughs) And whatever is written in the brackets is the real meaning, whithin the parentheses. Samsara sukha is dukha. vidya-kule ki koribe tar. se sambandha nahi ja’r, britha janma gelo ta’r heno avatare jara rati na janmilo lochan bole sei papi elo ara gelo (Hindi) Koi papa is samsara mein Gaura Radha-Krishna se aapko door rakhne ki shakti nahi rakhta jab tak aap Nitai ke sambandha mein ho. Aur aap sabse adhik Papa shunya hokar bhi agar Nitai ke sampark mein nhi aaoge toh bhi aap Gaur Radha-Krishna ko nahi prapta kar sakte. Kaliyuga mein papa koi ayogyata nhi hai. Proof hai Jagai aur Madhai sabse bade papi. Unko bhi Gaura RadhaKrishna mille. Nitai ki Daya se. So sabse mahatvapoorna shiksha yehi hai ki first of all realise your connection with Nitai. se sambandha nahi ja’r. You have to realise your connection with Nitai.

And why am I again saying there is intimacy! There is intimacy! I can give the proof for that, that in no other bhajana Narottama Dasa Thakur has said that you ‘grab’ the Lotus Feet of the Lord. He is only saying that you keep me `close’ to your Lotus Feet. ha ha prabhu nanda-suta, vrishabhanu-suta-juta, koruna karoho ei-baro narottama-dasa koy, na theliho ranga pay, toma bine ke ache amara (Hari Hari Biphale Janama) Keep me ‘close’ Your Lotus Feet but he is never saying that you can ‘catch’ the Lotus Feet because you are not qualified. You are not even qualified to see the Lotus Feet of Radharani what to speak of touching and grabbing and catching. In the entire year only once or twice you have the darshana of Radha’s Lotus feet, what to speak of catching. And it is never advised by any Acharya in the bhajana that you go and grab the lotus feet. But in this bhajana it is a very you know unique sidhantha or it is a very unique understanding by Narottama Dasa Thakur, he is trying to give the siksha that nitaiyer koruna habe, braje radha-krsna pabe, dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani (Nitai Pada Kamala) Dukhani means with both your hands. Dharo means CATCH NITAI’S LOTUS FEET. Can you actually touch the Supreme Personality of Godhead in your degraded position? And it is not saying that first you get purified or you get brahmana diksha or this or that qualification and then you can touch Nitai, for all readers of his bhajana, he is giving this instruction. Catch the Lotus Feet of Nitai. No problem. You are qualified because there is no consideration of qualification.

(Hindi) Aap kissi Bhagvan ke jakr paer aise pakar nhi sakte. Aur na kissi Acharya ne aisa updesha diya ki jakar pakadlo. Sirf Nitai ke charano ko pakadne ka updesha diya gaya hai kyunki Nitai ke charano ko koi bhi pakad sakta hai. Nitai ke charano ko pakadne ke liye apko brahmana diksha lene ki avashyakta nahi hai. Apko koi yogyata nahi chahiye. And this is a very deep line. nitaiyer charana satya, tahara sevaka nitya, nitai-pada sada koro asa And drdha kori dharo nitaira paya and then he is saying dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. And in the first line he is saying nitai-pada-kamala. This entire bhajana is you know full of Nitai’s charana. Everywhere he is first of all saying that Nitai’s Lotus feet are more cooling than millions of moons. Then he is saying without Nitai you cannot attain Radha-Krishna, so ‘catch’ Nitai’s Lotus feet. Then he is saying that when Nitai will be merciful on you, then you will automatically attain Vraja dhama, you will see the chinmaya dhama, you will see the real dhama. Your transcendental eyes, senses will awaken and you will see Radha and Krishna. braje radha-krsna pabe. So dharo nitaiyer charana du’ khani. Then he is saying that nitai-pada sada koro asa. Then in the last line he is saying narottama bodo duhkhi, nitai more koro sukhi; rakho ranga-charanera pasa. The entire bhajana means take shelter of Nitai. The entire bhajana the only crux, the jist of the bhajana is that just take shelter of Nitai. Lotus Feet means you have to take the shelter of entire Nitai. You cannot take the shelter of Lotus feet exclusively. You have to take shelter of Nitai. Narottama Dasa Thakur is saying.

Today a miracle happened with me and Nitai seva dasa Prabhu. We did not know that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur. We in the afternoon decided to go to teen Goswami Samadhi and we’ll do some japa and Vayulekhan and some bhajana and then we went out of our ashrama and then we went to Kundeshvar Mahadev and we did dandavat to Radhakund Shyamakund and when we stood up, I got an inspiration, I don’t know how that today I should do bhajana in Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave here. Have you seen Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave here in Radhakund? Who has seen? Narottama Dasa Thakur’s bhajana kutir where he performed bhajana after disappearance of Pancha Tattva. Narottama Dasa Thakur came and he stayed in that cave and he performed bhajana. He used to cry day and night. So that cave is there in Radhakund. So out of the blue moon, I never get that desire. Today only, and I did not even know that today is the disappearance of Narottama Dasa Thakur. I suddenly got that inspiration on the banks of Radhakund. I was standing and then I came back. From Radhakund I came back and went inside the cave with Nitai seva dasa prabhuji. Then after chanting two rounds of Hare Krishna Mahamantra, I suddenly got an inspiration to recite Narottama Prabhor ashtakam written by Vishwanath Chakravarti Thakur. An ashtakam, eight verses in glorification of Narottama Dasa Thakur but there was no network in the phone, so I specially requested my friend Nitai seva dasa Prabhu to go to upstairs where network is coming and open Narottama Prabhor ashtakam in Google Chrome and bring it downstairs. Then we recited Narottama Prabhor ashtakam with a lot of bliss. Very loudly we recited, we were singing actually. namo namah srila narottamaya namo namah srila narottamaya Then I changed two more rounds of Mahamantra and did some Vayulekhan. And then in the end we sang Hare Krishna Mahamantra for Narottama Dasa Thakur’s pleasure. Then I came back from the cave and I reached the ashrama, I opened up my phone and Nitai Putra Dasa Prabhu had written that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur. I got goosebumps on my body. Because it was such a great coincidence that I did not even know that today is disappearance day of Narottama Dasa Thakur and somehow Radharani gave that inspiration. I went to the cave. I did bhajana. I sang Narottama Prabhor ashtakam and then I came back. And then I came to know that today is Narottama Dasa Thakur’s disappearance. This happened one month ago also when Srivasa Pandit’s disappearance was there. We did katha on Srivasa Pandit accidentally and after the Katha was over, we opened our telegram app and somebody sent that message that today is disappearance day of Srivasa Pandit. Then also I got surprised. So this is the mercy of Nitai that even if you forget the appearance or disappearance of an Acharya, Nitai will make you celebrate that. And let me tell you one another miracle that today I ate after 1 p.m. Accidentally I fasted after noon 12 p.m. and that also was not planned. At 1:30 p.m. I accepted grains before that I just had to glasses of mausami juice. So I was thanking Nitai that Oh Nitai! You are so merciful that I am so neglectful that I did not even check whether today is an appearance tithi or disappearance tithi or not. But You made me celebrate that. And unknowingly I was celebrating Narottama Dasa Thakur’s disappearance. And I was fasting also and celebrating also. This is entirely Nitai’s mercy. (Claps) And we are experiencing this everyday in some form or the other Nitai is bestowing so much mercy. That is why we force so much vigour and zeal and power, we want everyone to take shelter of Nitai because Nitai will surprise you every morning, every afternoon, every evening with new and new miracles. Miracles will become common in your life. Very common. And for entire 30 minutes he was having goosebumps in his body in Narottama Dasa Thakur’s cave. For 30 minutes he was having goosebumps, not for 30 seconds for 30 minutes. For half an hour he was having goosebumps constantly goosebumps. So this is all possible by Nitai’s mercy. For today I think I will wind up now. Tomorrow hopefully Srila Nitaipreshthji Gurudev Ji will come out of his bhajana kutir and give us some real Nitai nectar, not hollow unrealised words like me. I am just speaking mechanically but he speaks from his heart with full realisation. So we will do some kirtana now in the end for 5 or 10 minutes. Then we will have some prasadam. Then bhakti yoga nidra in Radhakund. Not just yoga nidra but bhakti yoga nidra. So now we’ll try to. (Hindi) Sorry main Hindi mein pura anuwad nahi kar paya kyunki samay kam tha aur zyada bolna tha. Abhi hum Nitai ki kripa ki bheek maangege kirtana mein. We will try to gain Nitai’s attention and request Him for His kripa kataksh. Sidelong merciful glance. Not request Him but we will beg. We should beg because Nitai was begging from door to door. He had no ego. Abhimana sunya. He had no ego. (Hindi) unko bheek maangne mein koi sharam nahi aayi, humein bheek maangne mein sharam aati hai. Woh sakshat Bhagwan hone ke baad. He was the Supreme Personality of Godhead and He had no shame, no hesitation, no ego when he went from door to door and he was begging. The Supreme Personality of Godhead, Sakshat Balrama Sarva Shaktidhara, omnipresent, omnipotent, omniscient, He was not having any ego in begging and we fallen souls, we vibhinamsha, tathastha shakti, badha jiva, badha souls, we have ego that too in front of the Lord. We may have ego in front of some ordinary person. But why are we having ego in front of the Supreme Personality of Godhead who had no ego in begging from us? He was begging from us and we can’t beg from Him? That is very shameful. So we should not request, we should beg Nitai and for begging we should turn off the lights where we can cry. Shall we turn of the lights? We can turn off the lights. Now the recording can stop.

For 5-10 minutes we will beg which is the Nitai kirtana plus begging session. Srila Gurudev Maharaj ki Jaya! Doyal Nitaichand ki Jaya! Sri Pancha Tattva ki Jaya! Sri Radha Madan Mohan ki Jaya! Sri Radha Gopinatha ki Jaya! Hari nama Sankirtana yajna ki Jaya! Nitai nama Sankirtana yajna ki Jaya! Nitai Gaur Premanande Hari Haribooolll! (Kirtana begins)